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left0vers

left0vers

это всего лишь кошмар
Feb 23, 2026
139
Is that a good idea? I am not expecting to OD, my goal is to pass out quickly while I'm standing on a stool with a knot around my neck or, alternatively, right before I drink SN, though the latter seems riskier.
 
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hdead

Wizard
Jun 2, 2026
612
The SN protocol does include benzos, and I had similar thoughts on hanging with benzos. Hanging is off the table for me personally but from what I've seen and read here it's a combo that's been used succesfully.

All I can really advise you to do is do your research and draw your own conclusions.
 
sifp

sifp

Member
Aug 19, 2026
98
I too have had the same idea. Ctb is so frightening and it seems tempting to just medicate that fear away.

I tried hanging but just couldn't bring myself to do it (pain not SI), so I thought maybe if I just chase a handful of benzos with a swig of vodka with the noose around my neck I would pass out. I haven't tried it though because if I fail I imagine I'll be in pretty rough shape and I live with my parents. And I'll have wasted a bunch of precious benzos which are tough to get.

Seems like a viable strategy though and will probably be my back up if I can't get my hands on SN. Like the above user said benzos are part of the SN protocol (not riskier) so it's good to have. For me it was easier to get than an and ae.
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
Ae seems impossible to get. Everyone has it but I can't get it.
 
left0vers

left0vers

это всего лишь кошмар
Feb 23, 2026
139
The SN protocol does include benzos, and I had similar thoughts on hanging with benzos. Hanging is off the table for me personally but from what I've seen and read here it's a combo that's been used succesfully.

All I can really advise you to do is do your research and draw your own conclusions.
I too have had the same idea. Ctb is so frightening and it seems tempting to just medicate that fear away.

I tried hanging but just couldn't bring myself to do it (pain not SI), so I thought maybe if I just chase a handful of benzos with a swig of vodka with the noose around my neck I would pass out. I haven't tried it though because if I fail I imagine I'll be in pretty rough shape and I live with my parents. And I'll have wasted a bunch of precious benzos which are tough to get.

Seems like a viable strategy though and will probably be my back up if I can't get my hands on SN. Like the above user said benzos are part of the SN protocol (not riskier) so it's good to have. For me it was easier to get than an and ae.
The risk I mentioned is about the timing. The first time I took 2 mg of xanax, I was put to sleep within a a couple of minutes. Thus, taking a greater amount should be done right before going through with the main ingredient to the method. I figure nothing's going to happen if it's is hanging, but with SN, there's always the chance of vomiting. If that happens shortly after I take benzos, I imagine most of that dose will come out, which at mininum will leave me in panic and force me to watch my body die without going unconscious for however long it takes for SN to do its job.
Ae seems impossible to get. Everyone has it but I can't get it.
Antiemetics?
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
The risk I mentioned is about the timing. The first time I took 2 mg of xanax, I was put to sleep within a a couple of minutes. Thus, taking a greater amount should be done right before going through with the main ingredient to the method. I figure nothing's going to happen if it's is hanging, but with SN, there's always the chance of vomiting. If that happens shortly after I take benzos, I imagine most of that dose will come out, which at mininum will leave me in panic and force me to watch my body die without going unconscious for however long it takes for SN to do its job.

Antiemetics?
Yes
 
Red Desert

Red Desert

Here for a short time. Здесь на короткое время.
Apr 24, 2023
118
Тoo much for you.
 
MatiSendiri

MatiSendiri

The world is still unfair to me
Jun 8, 2025
264
Is that a good idea? I am not expecting to OD, my goal is to pass out quickly while I'm standing on a stool with a knot around my neck or, alternatively, right before I drink SN, though the latter seems riskier.
If your target is to black out, I really suggest to experiment on how much you can take and onset time for you to black out using benzos. Each person has different dosage and onset time for benzos (or any other meds) to work.
 
left0vers

left0vers

это всего лишь кошмар
Feb 23, 2026
139
Тoo much for you.
Jealous much?

If your target is to black out, I really suggest to experiment on how much you can take and onset time for you to black out using benzos. Each person has different dosage and onset time for benzos (or any other meds) to work.
Unfortunately I only have so many & can't afford to waste them.
 
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