4Icarus
Member
- Aug 26, 2025
- 25
Hello again. Long time, no talk.
It's getting harder and harder to want to connect to people. The more I watch people talk amongst themselves from a distance, plan things without me, plan things that are... open but they'd no intention to make it accessible past half formed promises of things they *want* to do. I feel like I'm not meant to be here after all. Like I've overstayed my welcome.
Without taking up your time anymore than I need to:
I've tried to recover. Nobody wants me to be around after said recovery, even though the idea is still nascent, technically I'm nowhere near.
I think I'm distant enough to attempt again. I'm tired. I can't even push myself to feel sad. Might as well while I have the time and funds to tie up loose ends, however meager. Where would I start? There's books on the topic, right? I wanna find them on the archive but I'm blanking on names right now.
It's getting harder and harder to want to connect to people. The more I watch people talk amongst themselves from a distance, plan things without me, plan things that are... open but they'd no intention to make it accessible past half formed promises of things they *want* to do. I feel like I'm not meant to be here after all. Like I've overstayed my welcome.
Without taking up your time anymore than I need to:
I've tried to recover. Nobody wants me to be around after said recovery, even though the idea is still nascent, technically I'm nowhere near.
I think I'm distant enough to attempt again. I'm tired. I can't even push myself to feel sad. Might as well while I have the time and funds to tie up loose ends, however meager. Where would I start? There's books on the topic, right? I wanna find them on the archive but I'm blanking on names right now.
