chaewon
Member
- Jan 8, 2026
- 19
Around a year and a half ago I was speeding with my friend in the passenger seat recklessly and cutting up just to get some adrenaline and some sort of euphoria (it is selfish and retarded of me I realise now) and I ended up crashing into the back of a truck on the right side where my friend is, I remember the speed being exactly 147 KPH/91 MPH which should be deadly, the car hit a truck and the truck spun around and so did mine, then I ended up crashing into the side of an SUV while spinning and then hitting a curb and being stationary there. it was all in slowmotion and I can remember all the details from that moment,
believe it or not neither me or my friend had a single scratch on us even though all airbags opened and the corner of the car where my friend was sitting was literally compressed inside. glass broke but didnt shatter inside the car. I only had some back pain which went away in around a week.
I was grateful i survived unharmed at that time because I wasnt actively suicidal even though I was still depressed and empty. Then I had to deal with paying for the SUV to get fixed which was a german car so it was expensive, same for the truck. And I had to stay for months without a car and dealing with Insurance headache and bullshit.
Now a year+ later, I wish I would have died in that crash and never had to experience what I experienced this year. Or atleast I wish the losses and stress I was in drove me to CTB
believe it or not neither me or my friend had a single scratch on us even though all airbags opened and the corner of the car where my friend was sitting was literally compressed inside. glass broke but didnt shatter inside the car. I only had some back pain which went away in around a week.
I was grateful i survived unharmed at that time because I wasnt actively suicidal even though I was still depressed and empty. Then I had to deal with paying for the SUV to get fixed which was a german car so it was expensive, same for the truck. And I had to stay for months without a car and dealing with Insurance headache and bullshit.
Now a year+ later, I wish I would have died in that crash and never had to experience what I experienced this year. Or atleast I wish the losses and stress I was in drove me to CTB