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Privatehell

Privatehell

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Mar 3, 2020
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I'm gonna regret this in the morning because of the shame demon. I've been drinking too much, it's got progressively worse since covid, I'm working from home so it's easier to be hungover. But fuck, I'm struggling, my dependancy is getting worse because I don't feel any regular happiness. I'm an introvert so it's not like I'm in dire need for loads of contact... My head just feels warped and I feel a bit isolated and bothered by it. Treat this as an open forum to bitch about isolation.
 
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timf

Enlightened
Mar 26, 2020
1,117
The success of AA is based on the credibility one has with someone else who has gone through the same things. The ark someone usually travels on this path starts with seeing benefit (even if temporary) in drinking. As time passes and consequences accumulate, one may begin to see greater benefit in quitting. This often results in a tension between what the mind sees as desirable and what the body still wants.

AA can help with this difficult transition. They are just a phone call away.
 
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Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Im also an addict, not to alcohol, sorry you're facing this. Usually doctors say it's the hardest habit to quit. Have you thought on looking for advice or help to kick the habit? One of the things that makes it so hard to stay sober is having alcohol on display pretty much everywhere. Sending you a hug, wish I could help you more. But my addiction is pill related. And what I'm doing is tampering down. Hugs
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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My alcoholism wrecked my health in the past and has left me with chronic issues. I drink very little these days, but I DO drink, though I was off it for years. And yes, being isolated, I actually started again so that I could enjoy a reward (any excuse). It also acts as a safety valve to let out the controlled anger which sits deep inside me. But it's not good. I know I can't quit unless I find something of value to take it's place, otherwise abstinence is just a chore. Problem is...it's all I've got.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

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Dec 15, 2020
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Yeah I'm right there with ya bud.
 
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Tired_Tired

Student
Nov 25, 2019
160
AA is not just phone call. There has 12 steps and sponsors. If you are sobered. You may need to sponsor or be a secretary. They also has big book study. No everyone will sober.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

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Dec 15, 2020
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AA is not just phone call. There has 12 steps and sponsors. If you are sobered. You may need to sponsor or be a secretary. They also has big book study. No everyone will sober.
Yeah it can be a drag but I do kind of miss that fellowship of drunks like me.
 
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Tired_Tired

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Nov 25, 2019
160
It's wired not introduced yourself I am not alcoholics in the beginning on the meeting. Someone has mental issues like bipolar.
 
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virginiawoolf86

virginiawoolf86

Specialist
Jul 4, 2020
317
I'm with you on this. It's my coping mechanism. It's hard for me to deal with my illness without it. But today I didn't drink and I actually had water. My organs didn't hurt. So I guess that worked out to an extent. But I did have crippling anxiety.
 
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MrBigSad

Experienced
Sep 30, 2020
215
It's cheap and plentyfull. I know it's not much but find something to occupy your time. Write, read, draw and paint. Explore the places you have never been yet are so close to you.

We lost our imagination, our wonder. Gaze at the countless stars at midnight and you will find peace :)
 
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virginiawoolf86

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Jul 4, 2020
317
It's cheap and plentyfull. I know it's not much but find something to occupy your time. Write, read, draw and paint. Explore the places you have never been yet are so close to you.

We lost our imagination, our wonder. Gaze at the countless stars at midnight and you will find peace :)
I second this. Space and star gazing have brought me some sort of calm. While simultaneously being in awe of the countless possibilities out there.

Being in nature as well. Trying to train my brain to look for colors and scents and sounds. Collecting shells, rocks, and leaves feeling their texture and sounds.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

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Dec 15, 2020
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Tapering from a heavy night on Tuesday. The anxiety earlier was ridiculous. Should be able to hit zero drinks tomorrow.
 
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