Discussion Super Tolerant But Still Considering Oxycodone Does ER make this a bad idea

[Stagefour]

Yeah I've had the same thought and you'd like to think you can time it all right but it's definitely harder then you think. I mean I can get the pills down and the duck tape on for sure. The bag would need to be taped as I was passing out and possible be a turkey bag so it has some air in it to start.

Plan is to step out on my caretakers when they are sleeping and take an uber (I have an unknown one) to a hotel that rents detached romantic cottages, place is shady as fuck and they take cash only. They also have fireplaces so I've considered CO2 in the bathroom but people seem to fuck that up a lot.....

Then I'd turn my cell off and put my DND sign on the door. I mean I take around 330mg ofoxy a day for several months but again if I drop 12g of Xanax and a free drinks, take anti emetics. Also seeing sn for sale thinking maybe I can get some in person somewhere in my home state or the big city next door.

Luckily I have unlimited cash but down to just a couple days, I always wanted to do my CTB on Fb live to spread awareness for my cancer and the DWD movement. This wasn't what I wanted but it's what I'm left with and I promise you if I had my N it could tasted the devils sperm and I would have gratefully ingested 200 ml like a champ. I chew magic mushrooms with water and went through cycles and cycles of chemo and haven't actually puked in 7 years.

The risk of failure is brutal cause if I miss the surgery deadline and they take my meds away I'll be forced to jump or something cause I'm not an addict, I need these to stop crying 10 pain. Wondering if I can buy a thing of SN somewhere in person hmmmmm

 

[Soul]

Stagefour, I'm sorry you're going through all this and wish you relief and a safe journey.

 

[tootired]

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Looking into SN now. Other alternatives I'm considering is just dropping tons of my meds 2.4 grams (2400mg) of oxy and ducktaping my mouth shut. Doing a few shots. Adding a plastic bag before I pass out. I only have till Tuesday at 6am or I'll have to plan to ctb after my release from the hospital which will be a lot harder as an amputee then a cripple as I won't be able to get away from my caregivers who love me dearly,

you may want to look int doing the oxy's rectally. it maybe a solution to the throwing up part. ..maybe it'll help

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

Thanks for the perspective. My brain and the rest of me is in ok health at this point. In order to enter hospice and get pain relief I would have to be willing to simply agree to bed ridden when right now the new avengers movie is about to come out. I'm sure that sounds stupid to people. It's important to me though, it'll be the first marvel movie I ever miss opening night for. Seen them all with my loving beautiful wife of a decade.

Fucking sucks. Doctor is out if I don't show for the surgery date.

Aside from that they def will do what your saying with the slowly elevated morphine but I'm not ready to be in a half coma yet. I'd rather just get it over with in a few more weeks when the pain really gets crippling. I def don't want these people to chop off my leg, but it also might kill me so there is that. I just don't wanna end up bound in the hospital, legless in pain without any of my comforts for months while this thing tries to heal,

Lott's people in my spot never get back out. I'd rather take 6 good weeks the crab over 4-6 bad months, the cab anyway. I think the terminal have a different view point a little from most.

I should be venting on a cancer forum but I don't connect with them. I can connect with wanting to die cause I'm ready to pull out as soon as that corner turns. Plus you can't talk about ctb in cancer forums everyone is disgustingly positive (and good for them I wish I could fake it)

I've been delaying checking out of this life for the same reason. Avengers endgame.

 

[Stagefour]

I asked in another thread if you could do it rectally but the consensus seems to be that would just cause a massive enema like blow out.

I'm looking into SN now trying to learn everything super fast. No where I can go in person and buy it from what I can see. I don't think ill have time.

but is it really as simple as buying this bottle from Walmart.com or amazon and ingesting 20-25g of it dissolved in water and it's a wrap? Is so why do people bother with N? Is it cause of dependability and track record? I know there are compiled threads but it's information overload out there. What's the real deal on SN as far as what is known out there?

I'd like more then anything to do it legally through one of the legal states but I can feel it I won't make it. Everything points to being multilated followed by maximum suffering. Maybe while I'm in the hospital my thing from "A" will arrive then I can plan to find peace....

 

[markg109]

My heart bleeds for you, I am on hospice as well, and luckily I ordered my N from A in advance of intolerable pain, I do hope you publish your plight, perhaps these disgusting politicians will see it and grow a heart, sadly I doubt it.

 

[Jolene40]

My heart bleeds for you, I am on hospice as well, and luckily I ordered my N from A in advance of intolerable pain, I do hope you publish your plight, perhaps these disgusting politicians will see it and grow a heart, sadly I doubt it.

I wish for these vile beings who consistently vote against assisted dying to suffer the most horrific terminal demise and at their most horrific agonising point i'd ask them to cast their vote again.
The healthy human has no comprehension of the suffering the body and mind can endure.

 

[gingerplum]

I asked in another thread if you could do it rectally but the consensus seems to be that would just cause a massive enema like blow out.

I'm looking into SN now trying to learn everything super fast. No where I can go in person and buy it from what I can see. I don't think ill have time.

but is it really as simple as buying this bottle from Walmart.com or amazon and ingesting 20-25g of it dissolved in water and it's a wrap? Is so why do people bother with N? Is it cause of dependability and track record? I know there are compiled threads but it's information overload out there. What's the real deal on SN as far as what is known out there?

I'd like more then anything to do it legally through one of the legal states but I can feel it I won't make it. Everything points to being multilated followed by maximum suffering. Maybe while I'm in the hospital my thing from "A" will arrive then I can plan to find peace....

A number of people on this site have successfully CTB with SN. One of them was a strikingly attractive, healthy 21 yr-old male in Belgium that I corresponded with. It really hurts my heart to think that he thought his life had no value, and someone like you would love nothing more than to live. I am truly, deeply sorry for your situation.

At the right dose, SN disrupts the ability of your red blood cells to distribute oxygen to your body; this results in hypoxemia and brain death. As I understand it, the feeling is not unpleasant, and is comparable to a plane that depressurizes: not enough O2 in the cabin, everyone becomes drowsy and falls asleep before anyone realizes what's happening.

I would think that in your situation it would be even more desirable to take a hefty dose-- as much as possible-- of IR oxy followed by the SN. On an empty stomach, with metoclopramide protocol, of course. Even with your tolerance, a large enough dose should be enough to make you feel pleasant and relaxed prior to the SN.

Wholeheartedly agree with @Jolene40. Those who would deny someone like you a peaceful, dignified death should be brought to the brink of unimaginable suffering, over and over, until they change their minds.

 

[Cevapcici]

I asked in another thread if you could do it rectally but the consensus seems to be that would just cause a massive enema like blow out.

I'm looking into SN now trying to learn everything super fast. No where I can go in person and buy it from what I can see. I don't think ill have time.

but is it really as simple as buying this bottle from Walmart.com or amazon and ingesting 20-25g of it dissolved in water and it's a wrap? Is so why do people bother with N? Is it cause of dependability and track record? I know there are compiled threads but it's information overload out there. What's the real deal on SN as far as what is known out there?

I'd like more then anything to do it legally through one of the legal states but I can feel it I won't make it. Everything points to being multilated followed by maximum suffering. Maybe while I'm in the hospital my thing from "A" will arrive then I can plan to find peace....

Not everything that is legitimate is legal... You shouldn't bother about this, You do you!

Hope you can find peace soon.