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GHOST99
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- Jun 8, 2019
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I want to ctb, but the thing is, I know people will be angry at me after I commit.
My parents were immigrants to the US so I can have a better life than they did. The problem I have is that both of them are no longer living and I see no future for myself then on. I have an uncle and a sister, some friends that may miss me- but they would be extremely disappointed in me for dying and would most likely use me as a conversation piece afterwards. I know it is inevitable, but it irritates the hell out of me. Like holy fxck just let me rest in peace...
Why can't I just disappear instead? Going away quietly is like a dream to me. Also, do any of you have similar thoughts or tips on how to overcome this type of shame/guilt?
My parents were immigrants to the US so I can have a better life than they did. The problem I have is that both of them are no longer living and I see no future for myself then on. I have an uncle and a sister, some friends that may miss me- but they would be extremely disappointed in me for dying and would most likely use me as a conversation piece afterwards. I know it is inevitable, but it irritates the hell out of me. Like holy fxck just let me rest in peace...
Why can't I just disappear instead? Going away quietly is like a dream to me. Also, do any of you have similar thoughts or tips on how to overcome this type of shame/guilt?