Suicide notes

[suicidal.lady]

Hi,

Does anyone write suicide notes?
I have one that's in my phone but I'm curious to see if anyone else has written there's?
If you want you can share yours but no worries if not!

Xx

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I've probably drafted 20 different versions over the years. It sucks because no matter what you write it's always probably going to read as "I done had a sad".

 

[lessonlearned]

I've probably drafted 20 different versions over the years. It sucks because no matter what you write it's always probably going to read as "I done had a sad".

i felt that. i wrote so many but couldnt help thinking that itd be better without one. what is there to explain i guess plus i feel like it always sounded so dumb when reading outloud.

 

[goober]

I've drafted and tried to perfect one many times, but imagining how people would react to it made me decide not to write one

 

[JJJ]

I think I've settled on a generic professional resignation letter- like one you would write to quit a job.
"I regret to inform you my last day was X. Thank you for the opportunities for growth and development. Best of luck with your futures."


I can't articulate WHY exactly but this feels like the right call for me.

It is a little bit snarky commentary on capitalism and basically my only worth is what my job would dictate. I am worthless without work- or so I am led to believe.
It is a little bit that life feels like a job and frankly I'm going to quit.
It is a little bit impersonal which is how I feel like mental health is treated- even how we treat each other- disposable. replaceable. used.

The reality is if people who know me can't understand why I want to off myself, they really don't know me at all.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I had a notepad that I planned to leave on my person when the time came, just so those who cared about me would have an insight and understanding of my decline and why it had to come to this.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'll be writing a note. It will be more instructions, though, of who to contact (lawyer), that kind of thing.

 

[SleeplessSoul]

I've drafted letters in my head a lot, especially recently, I don't know what I'd write and I feel worried that I'd make it worse to the people I care about if I do but also I don't see myself not doing it?

 

[livingdeadgrl]

I have 3 versions:
- a sad one, expressing my feelings, it's been a while since I've made it so I can't relate to it anymore, i feel more apathetic lately
- a happy one, saying that I thought for years about doing it and that I never felt like I belong here and that's ok, everyone should feel happy for me, I will finally find peace and mainly that it's nobody's fault
- for a especial person, less generic. This person blocked me on every possible social media lol but we were really close and I know that he still care for me and will feel a little bit more impacted than others

I absolutelly hate the process of writing them but I feel like people deserve this

 

[dw33ter]

I've written many over the years, but none of them ever felt right. I have difficulty finding the balance between expressing myself and taking care of the feelings of those who I may leave behind. Very often these goals conflict with each other, and I haven't been able to write one that does both satisfactorily.

 

[wait-bus-stop]

I write a note when I practice.

Like many people who have chosen to hang, will test how it feels around your neck.

Ever since one SS participant talked about how he narrowly escaped when he practiced once, I just started thinking about how many people had CTB when they had only planned to practice.

Since then, I have always written a note before I "practice," which is not very often. I figure if I perish, I will at least have a note.

At other times, I sometimes wonder if I know I have already written a note; at some point, I will just get the courage and finish the job.