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Penelope12

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May 2, 2026
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In the past I was envied, and then I got everything wrong. People thought I was intelligent and lucky. How can I cope with this state of mind? I want to die.
 
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niiiika

niiiika

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Apr 14, 2026
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I think you're being really hard on yourself. Making mistakes or ending up in a place you never expected doesn't mean you've failed at life, and it doesn't erase the person you used to be. You don't have to figure everything out right now. The person you "used" to be is still in you, STILL YOU.
 
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FoolClimax

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Jun 26, 2026
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Everyone fails in life. Either its today or tomorrow. Either its heart attack or lung cancer.
 
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3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
340
I am so sorry as I feel like I have failed at life too it's bizarre that what I wanted, needed and desired all my life is just a dream of nothing... and I just want to die every single time. I feel blank, useless now and have nowhere to go. Death is a bright way to escape this all horrible thing called 'life' and I hope you find freedom and peace.
 
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pagalparinda

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Sep 5, 2026
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We can only try. You know what, even God is not perfect. If he is, then why did created wrong? He should have remained with right only? The world is a circus and we are just part of it. Whether we remain in this body or not?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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Don't be so hard on yourself. Nobody's perfect.
 
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JVC

Member
Apr 22, 2026
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In the past I was envied, and then I got everything wrong. People thought I was intelligent and lucky. How can I cope with this state of mind? I want to die.
The more you learn about genetic determinism, the less seriously you take yourself. Free will doesn't exist. Everything that happens to you is the result of factors beyond your control.
 
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RazzleDazzle

The void stares back.
Sep 16, 2021
251
People are gonna think what they're gonna think. I know that the people who know me are gonna make a lot of wrong assumptions about why I killed myself and what happened in my life. Fuck 'em. I know the truth, and anyway in a hundred years we'll all be dead anyway.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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In the past I was envied, and then I got everything wrong. People thought I was intelligent and lucky. How can I cope with this state of mind? I want to die.
Same. I had it all and people thought I was smart.
But I was to awkward to see the truth, until now. I failed at life too. You're not alone
 
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