Venting Suicide is the Final Solution to my problems and pain

[KillingPain267]

I've tried suppressing my mental pain. I've tried drugs and alcohol. I've tried talk therapy. I've tried antidepressives. All as solutions to stamp out the parasite of mental pain in my brain. But it was never enough. I have no choice but to issue the Final Solution. Where the gas at?

 

[Life'sA6itch]

I've tried suppressing my mental pain. I've tried drugs and alcohol. I've tried talk therapy. I've tried antidepressives. All as solutions to stamp out the parasite of mental pain in my brain. But it was never enough. I have no choice but to issue the Final Solution. Where the gas at?

I have never drank or done drugs but I tried ctb with pills that were prescribed to me before, the 1st time was the night of my 13th birthday. Clearly I didn't know what difficulty dying would be and didn't have the right kinds and amounts. Sucks for me. I don't know where the gas is but I would love to relieve you of any extra you might find. I cannot suppress it anymore and am irritated or crying, anxious but always depressed. I just want out too. I hope we both can find some peace.

 

[KillingPain267]

I have never drank or done drugs

Good. Don't start, because it just gave me more problems. And now that I'm sober my brain still remembers how easy it is to numb pain, so it craves drugs and alcohol constantly. But I need to stay sober to plan a proper suicide and not ruin the freedom to do it. Because the more I relapse the more my family wants to monitor me.

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

I've tried suppressing my mental pain. I've tried drugs and alcohol. I've tried talk therapy. I've tried antidepressives. All as solutions to stamp out the parasite of mental pain in my brain. But it was never enough. I have no choice but to issue the Final Solution. Where the gas at?

Sounds like me. But, I survived pentobarbital. Somehow. Now, I can basically never get it again. I turned 40 almost a month ago. I should've died when I was 21, almost 22. I survived that. Then in 2018 I tried pentobarbital when I was 33. I'm still here. It's crazy. Multiple people I've known have died. My parents died. My best friend I knew since I was a kid died last year of an OD. But, I'm still here. I hate this goddamn planet and I want out.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

Sounds like me. But, I survived pentobarbital. Somehow. Now, I can basically never get it again. I turned 40 almost a month ago. I should've died when I was 21, almost 22. I survived that. Then in 2018 I tried pentobarbital when I was 33. I'm still here. It's crazy. Multiple people I've known have died. My parents died. My best friend I knew since I was a kid died last year of an OD. But, I'm still here. I hate this goddamn planet and I want out.

I understand that feeling, everyone being gone. It sucks. You must be immortal to have survived Pentobarbital. I wish I could get something like that. I truly want lights out.

 

[Halfhourdays]

I am in so much pain
Please let death come quickly.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Sounds like me. But, I survived pentobarbital. Somehow. Now, I can basically never get it again. I turned 40 almost a month ago. I should've died when I was 21, almost 22. I survived that. Then in 2018 I tried pentobarbital when I was 33. I'm still here. It's crazy. Multiple people I've known have died. My parents died. My best friend I knew since I was a kid died last year of an OD. But, I'm still here. I hate this goddamn planet and I want out.

How did you survive pentobarbital ?