Discussion Suicide feels like a failsafe

[spinelessparasite]

I'm weak. I'm used to living a fairly good life where I'm provided for and I can indulge in my interests. Beyond that, life seems pointless and boring. I don't want to spend my days working and I don't want to do hard things. I don't think I'm wrong for not wanting to suffer. I like living in a state of neutrality and have accepted that the ways I find happiness is expensive.

I leech off my parents. My father has just been laid off. I'm unsure of what will happen but I find comfort in the notion that if life ever becomes too unpleasant I can end it and be unbothered forever. Does anyone feel the same?