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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Technically it's my turn to die.
This curse doesn't end it only takes the people you love and it drags you down with them.

I loved her but she didn't see that her girlfriend was killing her . She didn't see that her cheating ass girlfriend was killing her .

I wish she saw and learned to live life without her but she's gone now.
I told her that if she died I'd die too.

Because I'm tired of losing people I love.
So tired of people around me ctb.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
Technically it's my turn to die.
This curse doesn't end it only takes the people you love and it drags you down with them.

I loved her but she didn't see that her girlfriend was killing her . She didn't see that her cheating ass girlfriend was killing her .

I wish she saw and learned to live life without her but she's gone now.
I told her that if she died I'd die too.

Because I'm tired of losing people I love.
So tired of people around me ctb.
Honey, did you just recently lose someone? I believe you lost someone before. I wasn't sure if you were reflecting backward or if you had an additional loss. Either way lots of hugs for your pain
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Honey, did you just recently lose someone? I believe you lost someone before. I wasn't sure if you were reflecting backward or if you had an additional loss. Either way lots of hugs for your pain
A additional loss , my ex girlfriend killed herself this week
 
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westerly_merlin

Thought I had moved on, life decided otherwise
Aug 13, 2025
204
That is so sad, I am so sorry for you. I can't start to comprehend how overwhelmed you must feel. Sending you hugs though
A additional loss , my ex girlfriend killed herself this week
 
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k1m

Member
Feb 6, 2025
74
Can you take some time to yourself just to decompress? That sounds like hell I'm so sorry.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Grief makes it much easier to ctb
 
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k1m

Member
Feb 6, 2025
74
Grief makes it much easier to ctb
Grief makes you do things you will regret later.

Everyone who's alive is emotionally tied to a handful of other people. There's only a few people who really remember us when we die. You carry part of what's left of your ex. You deserve a chance to really grieve.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Grief makes you do things you will regret later.

Everyone who's alive is emotionally tied to a handful of other people. There's only a few people who really remember us when we die. You carry part of what's left of your ex. You deserve a chance to really grieve.
Ive grieved over 6 different people , I'm done
 
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zizzou

Forever young, I wanna be
Sep 25, 2025
154
I think I know how you feel. What's keeping you here?
 
trashhologram

trashhologram

โšฐ Baby, let me decompose โšฐ
Dec 15, 2023
483
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost 2 loved ones to suicide, they died one year apart. It hurts. It's been years, I'm still grieving them. Especially the friend who died earlier. He was an amazing guy.
 
RoseGirl

RoseGirl

็—›ใ„็—›ใ„็—›ใ„
May 8, 2025
233
poor precious baby slipped away too soon.
i will be joining her soon.
she had half my heart and it's gone now.
my precious baby girl.

You carry part of what's left of your ex.
my room will carry a little part of her life, and it'll carry and peice of my soul too. it'll be a memento to the time spent alive together.
I loved her but she didn't see that her girlfriend was killing her
she knew but in the end there was no where else to turn to, her only other option was to suffer being alone again.
i ended up taking her world from her.


Suicides do come in threes. I'll be gone in a week and kc will be gone a few months after.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
poor precious baby slipped away too soon.
i will be joining her soon.
she had half my heart and it's gone now.
my precious baby girl.


my room will carry a little part of her life, and it'll carry and peice of my soul too. it'll be a memento to the time spent alive together.

she knew but in the end there was no where else to turn to, her only other option was to suffer being alone again.
i ended up taking her world from her.


Suicides do come in threes. I'll be gone in a week and kc will be gone a few months after.
No one ever thinks of me ... I'll be gone soon too
 

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