Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
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A couple of weeks ago I took a bunch of pills (been saving them for years - if you refrigerate them they don't lose their potency). It was a bad day and I've been wanting to die for so fucking long that's all my life has been. Anyway, took the pills (about 6) nothing so took more (not sure how many). Laid down and slept (coma like) that was Friday night - I didn't wake up until Monday morning - Good thing - god forbid I'm late for work for the assholes (attorneys). During that time I felt nothing I am so sorry that I didn't take all of them. The past couple of weeks would have never happened. But I refuse to die in the fucked up state (in the US) where I live. NO WAY I am planning on being with my little girl. Getting my last paycheck on Thursday, packing up and moving on. My cat now has liver cancer and is dying so we will go together. I have no fear about death. It's living that I fear and hate. No tears for me. No family and by preference no friends. Makes it a whole lot easier this way. I previously tried no water and no food later for about ten days. Gave up on that. Hoping my method is foolproof. Thanks for listening.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also could never fear death in itself, I believe death to just be nothingness, it's the only relief as existing is something so dreadful. Being completely unaware with everything finally forgotten about sounds like the best thing possible to me, I hope that you eventually find freedom from all the suffering.
 

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