Suicidal while orgasming?

[stilhavinightmares]

Does anyone else get intense suicidal thoughts when orgasming? I don't know where else in life I could ever ask this question. I'm sure it's a result of sexual trauma. It feels complicated.

 

[Gaming Chicken]

Not sure of your sex but this could be nothing more than post nut clarity. Or you just want out so bad your brain has connected your suicidal ideation with feelings of intense pleasure. Not at all trying to invalidate you or anything, just what I've come up with in my own experience.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I'm a female lol. I see what you're saying though. I definitely think it has to do with the similarity of the endorphins released upon pleasure and upon pain. I just don't really know how to "fix" it I guess. I feel bad for my partner bc my sex drive is so low and I feel awful having sex.

 

[SoftWorries]

One of every two times I'll end up crying the instant the orgasm has peaked and is coming back down.

In the past I used to get really suicidal if I laughed to the point of feeling any loss of control. It isn't like that anymore but it sucked when it was. Maybe the lack of control contributes to your feeling as well?

 

[sunshiningbackwards]

The french call it "the little death" for a reason

 

[stilhavinightmares]

One of every two times I'll end up crying the instant the orgasm has peaked and is coming back down.

In the past I used to get really suicidal if I laughed to the point of feeling any loss of control. It isn't like that anymore but it sucked when it was. Maybe the lack of control contributes to your feeling as well?

Oh it definitely does. Good call. 100%. Thank you for the insight.

 

[NGenIronFist]

2 best things combined.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

I literally grab my throat in a choking manner everytime I cum. I think the porn you are watching plus the fact you are single contributes to it. I also don't think you would feel that shame or suicidalness if you had sex with an actul person that you loved.

 

[HyenaRadio]

Thank god I'm not the only one omg!

 

[stermc]

Same lol

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I literally grab my throat in a choking manner everytime I cum. I think the porn you are watching plus the fact you are single contributes to it. I also don't think you would feel that shame or suicidalness if you had sex with an actul person that you loved.

I'm married lol. I feel the same way with sex with my partner but I attribute that to sexual trauma in my past and I have separate issues with that lol ugh

 

[Holu]

Does anyone else get intense suicidal thoughts when orgasming? I don't know where else in life I could ever ask this question. I'm sure it's a result of sexual trauma. It feels complicated.

Post but clarity hitting hard.

That being said I'm incredibly sadistic when or after cuming. Polar opposite ig

 

[scamper]

I am a male and I don't feel particularly more suicidal after orgasm, but I have felt that way after some other things that should be pleasant experiences. I wish I could tell you how that happens, but I have no idea how it works.

 

[Worndown]

That is probably how autoerotic asphyxiation succeeds. Just keep going a little more...a little more...oops!

 

[ctb-soon]

So I am not the only one - phew - what a release - or is that relief