Discussion suicidal ideation and menstruation

[self.destractive]

to all the people on here who get periods, how does it effect your suicidality and mental health overall?

one of the stereotypes of someone on their period is that they are more emotionally volatile, and although this is just a dumb stereotype, it's hard for me personally to get upset about it considering that's exactly what it does to me. (obviously this isn't true for everyone!)
in my own experience, menstruation and self-harm relapse go hand-in-hand, as well as as increased suicidal ideation. i'm pretty sure i was on my period the last time i attempted, actually! (entirely impulse driven, and in turn didn't work at all) i guess gender dysphoria doesn't help around this time either. its gotten so bad in the past around my monthly, that i actually have agreed with myself to try to not make any CTB attempts or plans when i am menstruating, because my thought processes go so off the walls bonkers batshit that i don't trust myself to be making major decisions in that state. the chances of me doing something impulsive and stupid are just too high. maybe this is a good thing when it comes to overcoming SI, but the attempt actually working is more shakey considering i tend to cut corners due to desperation. can't have that.


maybe it's a bit of a weird question, but i am genuinely curious if anyone else experiences this when it comes to shark week lol
i just got mine a couple of days ago and ive been absolutely miserable.

 

[chloramine]

Sometimes yeah. Especially on weeks where the pain and nausea is worse. I don't become impulsive but it can make me feel more lethargic and depressed. I can't be 100% sure it's the cause because it's not every time though.

Having to deal with gender dysphoria on top of all the regular awfulness of periods sounds awful, I'm sorry you have to deal with that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it just makes me more tired. I always feel horrible no matter what though and I know that for me my suffering will only end when I die. I'm sorry that you have to endure this. It is terrible how our bodies can torture us so much.

 

[WiltedSoul]

Yes, I 100% relate. I mean, I'm pretty miserable in general, but it's like my period amplifies the crazy. I think this is entirely hormonal and not to do with pain or any other awfulness of one's period because, get this, I don't have physically terrible periods at all. They've always lasted 2-3 days, I never really get cramps or anything, but the days leading up to and during it I suddenly become even more desperate, more suicidal. Super impulsive. I'll be sitting naked in the bathrub crying hysterically about how terrible my life is and then once shark week's over, I'm like. What the hell was all that about??

Yeah, sometimes stereotypes are based on a grain of truth. HEH.

 

[hellispink]

I am miserable all days. However, when my period is approaching, I feel like throwing myself off a cliff without thinking and planning. It gets me out of my nerves. It destroys me completely.