Suicidal dreams

[bl33ding_heart]

I had a dream the other day that I tested out partial hanging just to know what it would feel like. After I knelt down and felt the pressure against my neck. Nothing felt scary or painful at all. It didn't hurt or feel uncomfortable, it just felt like a strange unfamiliar sensation. And I wasn't filled with fear like I'd expected to be. I felt calm, I felt as if I had finally found a peace of mind. I slowly drifted off to near unconsciousness peacefully and blissfully, but once I got close to passing out I got up and untied the rope. I felt perfectly fine, and I got into bed and tried to fall asleep. But I was immediately hit with a wave of dread and pain . My heart started palpitating faster then it ever had before and I felt a strong sense of impending doom. I didn't feel those things while attempting, so why after? Why was slowly falling into the arms of death peaceful, but pulling back to reality scary and painful. I wonder if attempting to ctb would actually feel like this in real life. I haven't had any very serious near death experiences, so I wouldn't really know. But I hope my mind is as quite and peaceful as it was in my near final moments in that dream.

 

[laterAlagator801]

Tbh I have the same dreams mostly jumping off a building or bridge to wake myself up the moment I hit the ground it's like I died everything goes white. Or black ....and I wake up.. but sometimes our minds do what is in a our greatest desires that's we can't to here in this ... World.... But we are free in the dream lands to do so.it our own world yanno. u should look into lucid dreaming it's great fun once u learn how to do it.. I had a friend in high school she used to astral project when she was upset or very depressed and when she was ready to return back to her body she would snap right back ... U gotta look for an opening in ur dark tunnel...I know it's hard... I haven't found mine yet... but as my grandma said there's a place for everyone on earth like there is in the after life... And I know there's something greater out there for everyone... Sorry for the kinda off topic .. but I hope u find peace in whatever path u choose