
ThirteenthStep
We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion
- Jul 30, 2021
- 8
My boyfriend, C, broke up with me a couple nights ago. We had been dating/living together for 1 year.
I've loved him since the first time I met him 16 years ago in high school, and we've dated on and off for 10 years. I've always felt like he's my soulmate and this year was the longest time we've ever been together. I've never had feelings like this for anyone else and I've never really dated anyone else. He's the one.
We lasted so long this time that I believed this time was the time he was going to finally stay. I thought we had grown and matured over the years so that we could finally be together for good, like I always dreamed of.
It hurts so much. I'll never kiss, hug,, or hold him again. And it's not okay. I'm researching suicide methods.
I've loved him since the first time I met him 16 years ago in high school, and we've dated on and off for 10 years. I've always felt like he's my soulmate and this year was the longest time we've ever been together. I've never had feelings like this for anyone else and I've never really dated anyone else. He's the one.
We lasted so long this time that I believed this time was the time he was going to finally stay. I thought we had grown and matured over the years so that we could finally be together for good, like I always dreamed of.
It hurts so much. I'll never kiss, hug,, or hold him again. And it's not okay. I'm researching suicide methods.