Nights
Student
- Apr 27, 2023
- 164
I'm trying to force my brain to accept that sadness and happiness is just a illusion, that's like fighting against yourself, my brain tries to defeat logic throught dophamine and serotonin, coping with this is very hard, i tried doing cruel things such as causing a lot of unneccesary pain to people because i knew it would make me feel guilt which is what i wanted, that just made things worse because it makes me feel more pain, i tried doing things like self-harm and putting myself on life and death situations to see if i could defeat myself and be cable of controlling myself as i was in god mode, it didn't work, even when trying to think about things my brain still puts emotions backdoor into my logic and sometimes i find myself unsure if this makes me think in a way that goes with emotions, is there a way to stop all emotion hormones from going throught my brain?
