I had a really shitty couple of months, i lost pretty much everyone who was closest to me. i thought i finally had friends that were actually invested in my wellbeing/our friendship but my 3 closest friends left me and started being extremely judgemental to me knowing i was going through a severe mental health crisis. it felt like they saw me as just incompetent or dramatic.
there was also someone i knew who i really loved and i confessed to who cut me out of their life. i honestly feel like we loved each other but they were just too afraid of commitment and couldnt handle it. Now im just living with my parents postgrad and i feel completely hopeless. if i could find a job i dont even know if i could hold it down. in particular i thought i would be over the person i loved by this point because honestly, they just didnt treat me well and told me kind of horrible things toward the end, but i still feel completely destroyed after months. ive admittedly always been a romantic but i just feel scared of getting attached to anyone ever again.
i feel so hopeless about my future in general. ive been on this string of bad luck for years, ive never gotten along with people well (im honestly probably autistic)and my life just feels empty. i dont feel like i have anything to look foreward to and that im just prolonging things by sticking around. i just feel totally worthless
there was also someone i knew who i really loved and i confessed to who cut me out of their life. i honestly feel like we loved each other but they were just too afraid of commitment and couldnt handle it. Now im just living with my parents postgrad and i feel completely hopeless. if i could find a job i dont even know if i could hold it down. in particular i thought i would be over the person i loved by this point because honestly, they just didnt treat me well and told me kind of horrible things toward the end, but i still feel completely destroyed after months. ive admittedly always been a romantic but i just feel scared of getting attached to anyone ever again.
i feel so hopeless about my future in general. ive been on this string of bad luck for years, ive never gotten along with people well (im honestly probably autistic)and my life just feels empty. i dont feel like i have anything to look foreward to and that im just prolonging things by sticking around. i just feel totally worthless
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