Venting street sleeping, need a wee…

[LittleJem]

sleeping outside night three. Wish I had more blankets. Don't know where to wee. Saturday night more busy. OWIM. Oh woe is me. But depression still not with me so that's something…

 

[TimetoGo!]

sleeping outside night three. Wish I had more blankets. Don't know where to wee. Saturday night more busy. OWIM. Oh woe is me. But depression still not with me so that's something…

where are you? devastated for you. No one deserves to sleep outside and I am so sorry you are in that place

 

[downndone2]

I'm so sorry.. I hope you find somewhere to rest soon

 

[AnonymousRobin]

i slept outside last night. was very cold. sleep on something insulating like cardboard if you can find it. that works both ways if you have enough have cardboard over you blanket to keep heat in

 

[Supersadmommy90]

I'm glad you aren't too depressed despite the durress of your current bad circumstances. We're all in hell with you in our own various ways. If you can detach from the physical realities and limitations of your life to transcend depression though, you are levelled up. Proud of you. Want to be able to be stoic like you. I'm not homeless but I'm lacking in other equallly important respects. Cheers. I hope you can get to goodwill and ask them for some blankets even if you can't pay, I hope they will still give you this. I hope God saves us from our misery some day.

 

[Thisisme373]

Can I ask why you are sleeping outside, are you homeless?
I hope things improve for you.

 

[LittleJem]

homeless yes. don't kmow if council will help me. Am in London UK. I have just one layer of cardboard- not enough! Gonna hope to get a camping mattress. Am very lucky that my family got me benefits for disability. so even though money is tight not entirely destitute. And I need another wee! I don't have loo roll, but I got wet wipes. Jeez.
thank you all.

 

[LittleJem]

literally wet myself this AM on the street as couldn't leave my stuff to go pee! And nearly run out of weed. Hopefully getting weed tomorrow… At least I got food - I got a panini and was given croissants, tea, an apple and half a pizza. Have put my stuff in boxes and out for noodles. Just no warm trousers as I had to pee on them!

 

[alivefornow]

I hope you find the strength to work yourself out of this situation. You say you're not feeling depressed, that is great! May that be enough to fuel your recovery. Best wishes.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a horrible situation to be in, it's just so incredibly unfair what you have to go through but anyway I wish you the best of luck.

 

[wait.what]

Sweet Jesus … is a shelter an option? I don't pretend to know about the London shelter system, but it's got to be better than pissing yourself out in the cold. Since your pants are wet I assume the cardboard you've been sitting on is wet now too?

I'm guessing you're cis female, and at least where I live, women-only shelters* are the least horrific of the bunch. I doubt they'll let you in with weed, but from the sound of it, that's tomorrow night's problem. If you can get in tonight, you should at least be able to wash yourself and your clothes.

* Trans women are of course real women. Trans men and non-binary folks are real enough too. Try explaining that at the door of some overcrowded church basement shelter, though.

 

[LittleJem]

Sweet Jesus … is a shelter an option? I don't pretend to know about the London shelter system, but it's got to be better than pissing yourself out in the cold. Since your pants are wet I assume the cardboard you've been sitting on is wet now too?

I'm guessing you're cis female, and at least where I live, women-only shelters are the least horrific of the bunch. I doubt they'll let you in with weed, but from the sound of it, that's tomorrow night's problem. If you can get in tonight, you should at least be able to wash yourself and your clothes.

thank you. I had a change of clothes and a wash in a coffee shop. I tried a night shelter the other week: they had just nine spots. I was number 10 and another woman number 11. It's pretty distressing how there are no spots available. I'm relatively okay on the streets - so far have felt safe here. Just a bit heartbroken about how people I loved have treated me.

 

[wait.what]

I really can't wrap my head around how incredibly cruel fortunate people can be. If anyone here seriously needs material help, I'd look first to the folks camping on the sidewalk next to you. Fuck the people stepping over you all.

 

[thereisthemist]

it gets cold outside :<

 

[LittleJem]

it's really cold. At leasr not raining

 

[Myforevercharlie]

sleeping outside night three. Wish I had more blankets. Don't know where to wee. Saturday night more busy. OWIM. Oh woe is me. But depression still not with me so that's something…

I see you're in the UK.
Have you considered going to an Emmaus?

 

[LittleJem]

I see you're in the UK.
Have you considered going to an Emmaus?

Emmaus looks good - but I have my own work I want to start so just need housing not housing with work…

I am going to a homeless organisation today with a local man who has been homeless and volunteers with the homeless. I don't know if/how long the provess takes…Last night was cold though! But I did sleep..

 

[Thisisme373]

Can I ask, was you more depressed when housed and less depressed now being homeless? Like was you in toxic household or something
Why are you homeless? I'm not judging, I could end up in similar situation. I feel if I ended up homeless it would push me over the edge I'm already on the edge, my living situation is not good

 

[LittleJem]

Can I ask, was you more depressed when housed and less depressed now being homeless? Like was you in toxic household or something
Why are you homeless? I'm not judging, I could end up in similar situation. I feel if I ended up homeless it would push me over the edge I'm already on the edge, my living situation is not good

My depression was really helped by LSD plus people being kind to me. It was better than years of therapy as I could actually feel the childhood grief and fear I'd never felt….I was evicted by my 'ex's family last V Day, then my family are verbally abusive but nowhere else to go, so got into some relationships just to break up depression/get drugs. One exploitative grandpa who called me 'white flesh' and more recently a crack head I met on psych ward. I did like him and he said he loved me then evicted me. Where I am on the streets is relatively kind and quiet. It would be okay if I had blankets and cushions, last night really cold. And I need a street loo!

 

[randy]

But depression still not with me so that's something…

I've noticed when I was struggling for survival, depression kinda got pushed to the back of my mind.

Anyway, hope you get off the streets soon