Superdeterminist
Enlightened
- Apr 5, 2020
- 1,877
I disagree. It is helpful for others.
"...felt it like a truck hitting me " Could you specify the feeling, please?I tested 200 mg of SN old SN opened SN but from an industrial company .it was in the heat and exposed to light too.
Less than 10 minutes my heart was beating very fast , felt it like a truck hitting me .200 mg . No way someone is not unconscious by 15 minutes if drink 25 grams SN of pure SN imo. And this follows a lot of goodbye threads and pph. 200 mg is 1/5 the of a gram so 25 grams is 125 times 200 mg .
And I'm a big fucking ape 70- 80 kg
She was the bravest person I ever seen. Bravest act. R. I. P. beautiful flower.
EternalSummer
Experienced
- Nov 13, 2020
- 276
She kind of did it wrong, I think the sn wasnt all dissolved and a lot of it stayed at that weirdly shaped cup she used.
Apathy79
Arcanist
- Oct 13, 2019
- 482
She was homeless after escaping an abuser from memory.
Agree with this. Also why it took so long. But it worked out in the end.
Endless_suffering
Experienced
- Jul 12, 2024
- 219
She was 21yo, she was a kid. It worked for her just took longer. It seemed to be peaceful, but sadly i found article after and it wasn't that peaceful as it seemed. Well. But idk if it was about her fr. But still she was able to fight her SI for that long, its something unbelievable.
Self-deliverance is my new favourite term for this. I hate 'ctb' personally, but I understand it's utility.
Apathy79
Arcanist
- Oct 13, 2019
- 482
Is ctb even used outside this site or was it created here? I always wondered that.
acey
Above an abyss - funeral worker
- Sep 14, 2023
- 94
Can you provide the source perhaps? It looked quite peaceful in the video. The deceased body doesn't always capture the experience.
Mulher induzida ao suicídio por grupo agonizou duas horas dentro de hospital
Ela tomou nitrito de sódio com o intuito de testar os efeitos em seu organismo
www.topmidianews.com.br
Same day, same city, but date is wrong. Could be her.
EternalSummer
Experienced
- Nov 13, 2020
- 276
it's another case, I have her FB but theres no point in sharing, just morbid entertaiment to some random poeple around the world, there's no point sharing.Mulher induzida ao suicídio por grupo agonizou duas horas dentro de hospital
Ela tomou nitrito de sódio com o intuito de testar os efeitos em seu organismo
Same day, same city, but date is wrong. Could be her.
Well, I would like to have it not for morbid reasons. I really felt what she has been going thru. I also had my attempt during almost same time as she had hers. We dark times indeed. You can message me privately perhaps. I am very interested about Her case.
How do you know that? Is that real? "From memory" means what?
Do you know Her reasons?
Does anyone know more about this topic? Her reasons maybe? Or any detail?
Do you know Her reasons?
Does anyone know more about this topic? Her reasons maybe? Or any detail?
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People with good looks have social certain advantages. For people that have been bullied over their looks and even live reclusively due to looks, being pretty and still ctb is hard to understand. I'm not saying that's right or wrong, just one possible reason.
Anyway, her method looked more peaceful than I thought it would. I looked at her post history, she was here about 7 months back in 2020-2021. She didn't post much. From what I gather she had gotten away from an abuser but had no place to settle and felt dead inside but remembered a time when she liked life and ctb was something she never thought of. Kind of sad. I hope she's at peace now.
Apathy79
Arcanist
- Oct 13, 2019
- 482
It was a long time ago. From memory means from what I can recall at the time. Sounds like it aligns with her post history as Kali described above.
Oh okay, is her profile still here, so i can maybe read her posts? It's a sad story really. I think there were ways how to get out of it, it just felt so much like a prison for her to stay
Apathy79
Arcanist
- Oct 13, 2019
- 482
Her username is in the title of the thread. I can't access it directly but if you search for it by member, you can read her postsOh okay, is her profile still here, so i can maybe read her posts? It's a sad story really. I think there were ways how to get out of it, it just felt so much like a prison for her to stay
Thank you very much. I am so obsessed about the case bcuz she did it same time i attempted and i was going thru a lot back then and i kinda wish i met her and talked her out of it, helped her in her time of need. Idk, sometimes i wish my attempt didn't fail back then, still don't know what i did wrong... So sad is her case.
Nope, i wasn't able to see her profile, i think it's deleted by admins after her death.
I am handsome myself and i feel like i have to die for real, so...
looks doesn't matter. Brain chemistry does.
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I was able to call up her post history. She had 13 messages: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/search/1721652/?c[users]=StrawberryPanic&o=date
Thank you so much bro. She rly didnt post much, but from her situation it seems it was rly heavy
My understanding is that this term originates from ASH, which was a much earlier pro-choice-suicide community in 1990s or early 2000s.
CTB by nitro tank is much quicker to unconsciousness. ( basically one breath). Not that involved now that the small take home canisters are available - and can be delivered. I belong to Exit and have just read the latest (August 2024) update of the PPH recommending these. Not that expensive either. I know someone who successfully used this method…I didn't actually see them at the time but about a week before, knowing her intentions. She rang Exit the night she intended to do it and they informed police next morning to attend her home. It is important to make sure the canister is secured to something so that when you slump it doesn't fall over and will continue to deliver the gas for about 20 minutes, when death occurs. It's my preferred method over SN. Again, the details of how to get it right need to be read and are probably on this site already. It does involve quickly pulling a bag down over your face but avoids nausea, dizziness and uncertainty. Also over the head hoods are now available to buy to connect the tubing to for more gradual delivery of the gas - if the idea of a quick pull down of an oven bag is too gross. That may take a minute or two to unconsciousness as you breathe it in.
Zecko
life is killing me
- Sep 2, 2024
- 37
@suffering_mo_7 they have a video here about SN*moderadores, espero que entendam*
para quem está apreensivo com as reações do sn - o áudio do arquivo foi corrompido.
(não estou violando nenhum direito de imagens. Estes arquivos estão em domínio público)
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*moderators, hope you understand*
for anyone who is apprehensive about SN reactions - the audio file is corrupted.
(I am not violating any image rights. These files are in the public domain)
translated by google translator
Vídeo Chamadas - Google Drive
drive.google.com
I didn't see her drinking SN or dying so I'm not sure what's that drama in here all about. This is not how SN works. It's very painful you won't be talking or looking like that..*moderadores, espero que entendam*
para quem está apreensivo com as reações do sn - o áudio do arquivo foi corrompido.
(não estou violando nenhum direito de imagens. Estes arquivos estão em domínio público)
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*moderators, hope you understand*
for anyone who is apprehensive about SN reactions - the audio file is corrupted.
(I am not violating any image rights. These files are in the public domain)
translated by google translator
Vídeo Chamadas - Google Drive
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