Strange feeling

[suncide10]

I don't know why but I have this strange feeling. I still don't wanna do anything, and rot in bed all day but I feel numb instead of sad. I still don't wanna live but I'm not thinking of suicide as much as before. Sometimes I wanna try to do something to get better but the moment I do it I lose all my energy so I stop.
I'm so tired of doing everything on my own, and I believe I could get better if I had someone doing it with me or someone that would love me for who I am. I want to be heard without being judged or someone trying to fix me. I am so tired of this loneliness but I'm honestly kind of scared to meet new people because of some shit that happened to me in school when I was younger and now I can't trust anyone and scared that people would hurt me.

 

[SunnySideSummer]

I wish you will meet someone , i wish too

Try to meet peoples adults are way less evil than teenagers, any randoms activities to meet randoms peoples is a begining and with time you will certainly meet someone

 

[itsgone2]

I don't know why but I have this strange feeling. I still don't wanna do anything, and rot in bed all day but I feel numb instead of sad.

I've had this. It started to vary. Never know what I'll get.

 

[callmer]

I'm so tired of doing everything on my own, and I believe I could get better if I had someone doing it with me or someone that would love me for who I am. I want to be heard without being judged or someone trying to fix me.

I totally feel you. Just completely out of reach for other people. Feels like you're not even real and just numb to everything.

 

[Mr.Ruben]

I would say suncide in that situation where I've found myself in the past (of not being able to do activities, deep reasoning or talking to people) what made me out of that situation was being forced out of it, something like going outside because someone in my family asked them to buy something, and I look at myself how unready I am, unconsciously I prepare myself, take a shower, change old clothes, and when I feel myself and look at myself, I did it, I managed to break the cycle, from there I either go back at it or do something really don't want to, which is to do something different, for example I rarely go out to "clean my mind" but the 3 times ive done in the course of the 2years, helped. especially if you still love things like art, positive emotions, and some sunny days at the beach.

if you play games, try a game called Before Your Eyes, it won't change you, but I am a strong believer that movies, games, writing, music, can change someone's behaviour or thoughts into certain things, making a change in the way we view things, so if you can, listen, see, hear, great art, might help a little