Im a 110lb woman, have two bottles I'd like to do a taste test just to know what I'm dealing with so I'm thinking of opening up one bottle and just dipping a finger in to try it. Could I successfully store the remaining n for a week or so?
I would recommend using a sterile needle if you want to extract some from the bottle. That's what I used. I don't think it's all that bad (but I've also drank everclear before). It reminded me of everclear without the burning sensation. Knowing that I have half a glass of grape juice-tasting moscato, half a glass of root beer, and three gummy bears as chasers gives my end-game extreme subjective appeal. I'll also be way out in nature under a clear desert night-sky, so I must admit I'm pretty lucky in that regard. I'm using the moon as my clock (having an external object to gauge time is also extremely powerful for being heavily grounded in the present
: moon, weather, music, etc. can be anything you want). Painless methods lend themselves well to trance states (so they require far less emotional energy for follow-through). In a trance state (or, flow
state) it is possible to have one's subjective sense of self/space/time completely expelled
from conscious awareness --in fact, this is likely what occurs (to varying degrees) during a successful suicide.
I'm going to include these in my final notes. They just might be the psychological silver bullets
that many yearn for, with the potential to completely void/invalidate the primordial life-force. Combined with the best painless methods available (barbiturates, nitro), these concepts carry a lot of potential for making death a piece of cake,
if not enjoyable (which is my personal aim).
It's all in the anticipatory
aspect of being present.
If you are projecting death as a negative, it will make things difficult. If you are enjoying the present
, it opens up positive
anticipation (instead of negative).