Method Still Here... Woke Up 2 Hours Later After (Fentanyl Overdose) -Please Read Entire Post-

[darksoul999]

Well guys i am still here...

So let me just say i was not really trying to CTB last night...

I was feeling really depressed as usual. Springled a very small amount on my desk and snorted it..

I felt super relaxed, floaty, calm and sleepy..

My oxygen level went below 50%, i was still awake when right before lights out.

Could not even move my body was so relaxed and in a blissful state...

I know for certain if i did a solid line, i would have successfully OD'ed.

I guess i wanted to test it out and get as close as possible without dying...

well, one moment i was super relaxed, listening to music.

The next, i just woke up, took breath, looked at the clock and realized 2 hours had passed.

Still don't know if i actually just passed out or went unconscious for a few hours.

My hearing was also muffled and vision blurred.

after a few mins everything went back to normal

This was my experience.


Side Note: I am still on the fence if i really truly want to do it at least right now. I am very close with my Dad and i don't want him to suffer the loss, I'm his only son. It really sucks guys because I am a good person with a good heart. I don't want others to suffer BUT i can't personally continue to suffer like this. I don't know what to do. My dad has done so much for me, but he knows i have bipolar and suffer with this illness. Sa i know he would understand but i really don't like to see others suffer, specially a loving father who has done everything for me to make me the man i am today. Let me know if any of you relate or have good parents, a partner ect... that makes it harder to CTB.

Thanks for reading, i love all of you guys even though i don't know you.

 

[LastNite]

Did you test it using a kit or no?

 

[darksoul999]

Did you test it using a kit or no?

Yes, its Fentanyl. not 100%. I would say prob at least 90% Fentanyl. No other shit like coke, meth, caffeine, ect...

 

[kipper]

I was wondering about you earlier. If you aren't sure of it, there is no shame in holding off for however long until you feel ready.
It can be difficult when considering loved ones, I have some good friends I know it would hurt a lot regardless of how I feel about it.

 

[LastNite]

Yes, its Fentanyl. not 100%. I would say prob at least 90% Fentanyl. No other shit like coke, meth, caffeine, ect...

A test kit won't tell you the purity rate. I'm sorry you had go through this. It's a risky method, you should take a break from all of this. Don't take anymore if you got any left. I'd throw it away. You had already tested it by doing a line and it clearly didnt work. The entire batch that you got is likely not pure.

 

[darksoul999]

A test kit won't tell you the purity rate. I'm sorry you had go through this. It's a risky method, you should take a break from all of this. Don't take anymore if you got any left. I'd throw it away. You had already tested it by doing a line and it clearly didnt work. The entire batch that you got is likely not pure.

Sorry but how do you know what i did or did not do??? You sound just like the people on reddit who would discourage anything suicide related. I understand your point but this is NOT a site to lecture people. I never tell anybody on this site what u just typed. No, i did not do a fucking line. I did "A FEW GRAINS" My god, the pro-lifers are seeping through guys... Every method is risky, putting a gun to my head is risky. Its my life, i dont need somebody telling or lecturing me. I am just reporting my experience. Don't respond on someone's thread with this "i DONT THINK IT WILL WORK, ITS RISKY... Nobody on here want to hear that shit dude. we just want to be able to express how we feel without judgement or ridicule.

 

[LastNite]

Sorry but how do you know what i did or did not do??? You sound just like the people on reddit who would discourage anything suicide related. I understand your point but this is NOT a site to lecture people. I never tell anybody on this site what u just typed. No, i did not do a fucking line. I did "A FEW GRAINS" My god, the pro-lifers are seeping through guys... Every method is risky, putting a gun to my head is risky. Its my life, i dont need somebody telling or lecturing me. I am just reporting my experience. Don't respond on someone's thread with this "i DONT THINK IT WILL WORK, ITS RISKY... Nobody on here want to hear that shit dude. we just want to be able to express how we feel without judgement or ridicule.

Sorry. I misread it, I thought you said you did a solid line. But, now that I read it again you said, "if I did a solid line." I was going off of that, if it was an entire line, then it shouldve worked unless it was impure. Sorry again.

 

[darksoul999]

Sorry. I misread it, I thought you said you did a solid line. But, now that I read it again you said, "if I did a solid line." I was going off of that, if it was an entire line, then it shouldve worked unless it was impure. Sorry again.

Its fine man. I understand what you are saying. Listen, no method is 100% bullet proof. Not any low stress ones anyway. I understand the risk. As i was saying, i was not really in that moment trying to CTB. I wanted to see if its actually strong or not. first, street Fentanyl is different then medical Fentanyl. They act the same but are made differently. Street is made with powders ect... So there is no 100% PURE fent because the street fent itself is broken down so u do not DIE off a single grain of this powder. With that being said, you still only need maybe half a line if that to OD with no tolerance. I mainly tested it to see the effects so i know when i do CTB, I am not sitting there for the 2 1/2 minutes i have left feeling weird or bad. I respect your feedback, just be careful when you try to put down other peoples methods because for most on this site, that is their hope to end their pain. You prob were not trying to be an asshole so its all good.

 

[pleaseletmeleave]

Just wanted to say that I feel your pain and I relate. I'm really close with my mom and she's had such a hard life and has given me everything. I really don't want to hurt her either and I also hate causing any kind of pain to others. So I've been struggling with my feelings because I 10000000% want to die and feel like I need to but I just don't know how to do that to her. But I also don't know how to stay for her either. It's just so damn hard. So ya just wanted to stop by and say I feel ya! And I'm sorry for your pain

 

[.idiot]

You did fentanyl and survived. God fucking help you, dude. And good luck.

 

[darksoul999]

Just wanted to say that I feel your pain and I relate. I'm really close with my mom and she's had such a hard life and has given me everything. I really don't want to hurt her either and I also hate causing any kind of pain to others. So I've been struggling with my feelings because I 10000000% want to die and feel like I need to but I just don't know how to do that to her. But I also don't know how to stay for her either. It's just so damn hard. So ya just wanted to stop by and say I feel ya! And I'm sorry for your pain

Yea it's hard.