starving myself

[immrw]

at the point with my depression that im purposely skipping meals because I like how the pain feels in my stomach. I like hearing it gurgle. I like when I get light headed and dizzy, feels a bit like a high. I also in a sick way like knowing im saving money by not eating. I also think that I subconsciously feel like I don't deserve food, or I need to do more to earn it.

My boss gave me a hard time today about not eating (apparently they were all waiting for me so we could eat together), and someone pushing me to eat but made me even more determined to go to bed hungry.

 

[Holu]

Not to reinforce your ED, but ultimately I have no control over you. Do what you feel is right and should you possibly come to a point where you want help or just want to talk about it please feel free to let us know. Otherwise I will support you in whatever!

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

The longest I went without eating was 5 days. Could've gone longer because my appetite still hadn't returned, but I wanted to put my family at ease.

 

[sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft]

Sounds wonderful. I love the feeling of hunger but lately I've been binge eating a lot. Will try to start starving again, you're inspiring <3

 

[pieck's-bongwater]

at the point with my depression that im purposely skipping meals because I like how the pain feels in my stomach. I like hearing it gurgle. I like when I get light headed and dizzy, feels a bit like a high. I also in a sick way like knowing im saving money by not eating. I also think that I subconsciously feel like I don't deserve food, or I need to do more to earn it.

My boss gave me a hard time today about not eating (apparently they were all waiting for me so we could eat together), and someone pushing me to eat but made me even more determined to go to bed hungry.

My friends also give me a hard time about not eating enough. don't have the heart to tell them I don't care. so I just say "yeah i know lol"

 

[immrw]

you're inspiring <3

definitely not lol i'm not even proud of it myself. i'm just sad and bitter and gross. I don't think anyone should be following in my footsteps. I didn't mean for my post to egg other people on.

 

[pinkribbonscars]

I wish I enjoyed my reduced appetite. When I'm depressed or stressed I don't get much pleasure from food and preparing and buying it and washing dishes is a pain in the ass. I do eat, but sporadically. Dropping 10 lbs and worrying people sucks.

Today I had an iced coffee, two string cheeses, half an apple, some energy drinks, and some pistachios. Oh and Diet Coke. I have a cantaloupe I've been considering cutting up and eating with yog and berries but that sounds like effort. If you try to explain this ppl they just assume you're anorexic. It blows.

 

[doneforlife]

The longest I went without eating was 5 days. Could've gone longer because my appetite still hadn't returned, but I wanted to put my family at ease.

If I take sleeping pills, will intense hunger wake me up ?

 

[Dot]

Sounds wonderful. I love the feeling of hunger but lately I've been binge eating a lot. Will try to start starving again, you're inspiring <3

Pls b awre tht whle membrs spport ech-othr @ diffrnt tmes in thr strggles ths = nt a pro-ana frum

 

[d3c96524be95]

If I take sleeping pills, will intense hunger wake me up ?

My experience is that I tend to get used to the feeling of hunger. It does affect my sleep though: I'm more prone to nightmares and vivid dreams, which sometimes make me wake up. However, starving makes me so low on forces that I would say I sleep better during my anorexia phases overall. Regarding sleeping pills, I definitely need less benzos on my empty stomach to achieve the same effect.

Again, this is my own experience and I do not recommend that you starve because it's SH. If you still do it, please drink a lot. Maybe two liters a day at minimum. Dehydration is definitely not enjoyable.

 

[doneforlife]

My experience is that I tend to get used to the feeling of hunger. It does affect my sleep though: I'm more prone to nightmares and vivid dreams, which sometimes make me wake up. However, starving makes me so low on forces that I would say I sleep better during my anorexia phases overall. Regarding sleeping pills, I definitely need less benzos on my empty stomach to achieve the same effect.

Again, this is my own experience and I do not recommend that you starve because it's SH. If you still do it, please drink a lot. Maybe two liters a day at minimum. Dehydration is definitely not enjoyable.

Thanks! I have read a lot of articles which state that starving to death is not that painful. In fact once the pain subsides , and you are over it , it is smooth. But I am reading the experiences in this forum and it's a different story !