uglybunny
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- Apr 18, 2023
- 6
i already have disordered eating (no official diagnosis) and have already lost like 45 pounds,, i'm deficient in so many vitamins i already look dead (despite not even being close to ctb like i have plenty more body weight to lose) i just think i'll just let myself get worse and worse, slowly rot away. that way there's no big event or some shit. you know? not being labeled as ctb,, and by the time i ctb everyone will be essentially expecting it. i mean .. i'm an adult. no one can force me to do shit i don't want to. especially to recover/keep living. anyways,, i deserve the slow torture.