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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Angelic
Oct 6, 2023
140
fuck this medication. made me relapse even more, the withdrawal symptoms are horrible. the cognitive decline .. I WANT MY BRAIN BACK
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Arcanist
Feb 9, 2025
433
My meds can actually kill me in worst case scenario. Reason why I have to get blood test done every month to monitor my white blood cell count.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds really dreadful to me, I see it as so cruel how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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Unspoken7612

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Jul 14, 2024
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Speak to your doctor about doing a tapered withdrawal. Cold Turkey is horrible and should be avoided at all costs.
 
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kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
349
It sounds frustrating and difficult. Medication scares me because of this. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. Is there a way for you to take a very small amount while you taper off it completely so your withdrawal doesn't have to be so bad? I'm hoping the effects on your brain can go away after a while. I'm sorry
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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My meds can actually kill me in worst case scenario. Reason why I have to get blood test done every month to monitor my white blood cell count.
Is it Clozaril? I used to be on that nasty shit.
 
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davidtorez

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Mar 8, 2024
649
Amitriptyline fucked my brain. I have permanently memory loss from that shit, I'm guessing the frequent use of vodka with it didnt help either. I hope your brain heals for your sake
 
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RadiantNumber

Student
Mar 2, 2024
178
Once after taking it I have something similar to acid trip and once my sight worsen
 
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LittleBlackCat

Specialist
Feb 6, 2020
309
Once after taking it I have something similar to acid trip and once my sight worsen
I also had this. (With citalopram) had similar experiences with sertraline.. doctors don't care and just prescribe me another type which will probably have the same effects.
 
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RadiantNumber

Student
Mar 2, 2024
178
I also had this. (With citalopram) had similar experiences with sertraline.. doctors don't care and just prescribe me another type which will probably have the same effects.
Same you mean lost of sight or acid trip effect?
I am sorry for you, doctors don't care they are to sell drugs
 
lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
250
YES! This...
I was on antidepressants for 13 years and I had to just suddenly leave it last year (I couldn't pay for it 🙃🙃), and my mental health has never been this fucking horrible. I don't know how I survived the first couple of withdrawal weeks tbh... Had massive breakdowns, anger outbursts, suicide attempts, everything. And ever since then my depression is 100000000x worse than ever before, and it's been 8 months since i'm """clean""". I thought it will be easier by now, but honestly i'm convinced that it fucked up my brain chemistry so bad, that I will never ever be the same. My brain is just gone at this point and I wonder if it was worth it
 
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Marbas

Marbas

Member
Feb 20, 2025
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I feel for you. I've had nothing but horrific experiences with meds. I hope it gets out of your system quickly and you feel better soon.
 

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