SSRIs fucked me up

[moonflow3r]

fuck this medication. made me relapse even more, the withdrawal symptoms are horrible. the cognitive decline .. I WANT MY BRAIN BACK

 

[DivineSpark]

My meds can actually kill me in worst case scenario. Reason why I have to get blood test done every month to monitor my white blood cell count.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really dreadful to me, I see it as so cruel how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Unspoken7612]

Speak to your doctor about doing a tapered withdrawal. Cold Turkey is horrible and should be avoided at all costs.

 

[kunikuzushi]

It sounds frustrating and difficult. Medication scares me because of this. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. Is there a way for you to take a very small amount while you taper off it completely so your withdrawal doesn't have to be so bad? I'm hoping the effects on your brain can go away after a while. I'm sorry

 

[Hollowman]

My meds can actually kill me in worst case scenario. Reason why I have to get blood test done every month to monitor my white blood cell count.

Is it Clozaril? I used to be on that nasty shit.

 

[davidtorez]

Amitriptyline fucked my brain. I have permanently memory loss from that shit, I'm guessing the frequent use of vodka with it didnt help either. I hope your brain heals for your sake

 

[RadiantNumber]

Once after taking it I have something similar to acid trip and once my sight worsen

 

[LittleBlackCat]

Once after taking it I have something similar to acid trip and once my sight worsen

I also had this. (With citalopram) had similar experiences with sertraline.. doctors don't care and just prescribe me another type which will probably have the same effects.

 

[RadiantNumber]

I also had this. (With citalopram) had similar experiences with sertraline.. doctors don't care and just prescribe me another type which will probably have the same effects.

Same you mean lost of sight or acid trip effect?
I am sorry for you, doctors don't care they are to sell drugs

 

[lawlietsph]

YES! This...
I was on antidepressants for 13 years and I had to just suddenly leave it last year (I couldn't pay for it ), and my mental health has never been this fucking horrible. I don't know how I survived the first couple of withdrawal weeks tbh... Had massive breakdowns, anger outbursts, suicide attempts, everything. And ever since then my depression is 100000000x worse than ever before, and it's been 8 months since i'm """clean""". I thought it will be easier by now, but honestly i'm convinced that it fucked up my brain chemistry so bad, that I will never ever be the same. My brain is just gone at this point and I wonder if it was worth it

 

[Marbas]

I feel for you. I've had nothing but horrific experiences with meds. I hope it gets out of your system quickly and you feel better soon.