Story Spent 3 months in psychic ward

[Anhaedra]

Hello everyone its been a while.

I experienced a lot of things in the ward and there are a lot to talk about, but let me start from the beginning.

Ive been suicidal since the start of this year and I lost someone close to me last May which made things even worse. I spent the next two months basically just rotting in bed, until on july 28th, I finally attempted suicide. I got the sn and rented a room, however it didnt work and I woke to find myself in the hospital.
At first I didnt know how I got there and how did they even find me, then I knew that this one friend I told them about my plan reported it to the police, and they broke in the house while Im unconcious. It was a miracle that I was "saved" or rather a nightmare for me back then.

Anyways, I woke up to find myself chained to a bed in the middle of the night. I yelled all night till someone from the nurses came and untied me. The first couple weeks I spent them in my bed not eating or taking my meds, so the nurses forced me to do so. After a while I got used to the routine; waking up at 9 am for breakfast, the lunch at 2 pm and the dinner at 8 pm and between those hours there was nothing to do but watching tv.

When it came to treatment plan. We took our meds, talked in group therapy, and was seen by my therapist twice a week. After one month I was allowed to have a pen and paper cuz I wanted to write a novel. And thats what Ive been doing since. I finished the draft for one story and started writing another. Writing and reading really helped pass the time and distract me. The third month, there was nothing new. Same boring routine. I learned from my doctor that im going to leave next friday and im really excited to live my life again.

As for the suicidal thoughts, there arent any anymore. Overall it was an okay experience but I hope that I dont experience it again lol

 

[TransfemCutter]

This may be a very strange comment, but the first thing I thought when you began your story, was: "Holy shit, this sounds like the writing of Sylvia Plath". It made me giddy to hear that you're writing. If you ever end up publishing, PLEASE let me know or have some way for me to find your work, I'd love to hear your story told in it's entirety. PM me if you wanna talk. Stay safe <3

 

[FriesLovee]

Damn . They just disappeared? ( the Sthoughts?) what meds did u take?

 

[Regen]

Glad to hear that you survived and especially that your suicidal thoughts are gone!

It's so frightening how sometimes these can simply be gone and in some phases of life you can no longer imagine being suicidal. And when the thoughts are there, you have the feeling that they are the absolute truth. That's why it's so incredibly important to always try everything long enough to change the situation (which I don't mean specifically in relation to you).

Maybe you got the right medication and it helps? That would be great! Or was there something else that helped you?

I know everyday life on the ward well, I found it terrible. With what I know today, I would never want to go to an acute psychiatric hospital again, but I would always want to go to a planned rehabilitation, which is completely different. But it's wonderful to hear that it helped you!!!

 

[Innereye]

Did you feel that your core personality changed or more or less the same human but in a better spot?

Interesting quandary.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome back! I'm glad you don't have suicidal thoughts anymore!

 

[justcallmeJ]

ohh thats so good to hear! lets hope it stays that way <3

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Happy that you're not having thoughts any longer (they suck)

 

[SweetItalianS]

Hello everyone its been a while.

I experienced a lot of things in the ward and there are a lot to talk about, but let me start from the beginning.

Ive been suicidal since the start of this year and I lost someone close to me last May which made things even worse. I spent the next two months basically just rotting in bed, until on july 28th, I finally attempted suicide. I got the sn and rented a room, however it didnt work and I woke to find myself in the hospital.
At first I didnt know how I got there and how did they even find me, then I knew that this one friend I told them about my plan reported it to the police, and they broke in the house while Im unconcious. It was a miracle that I was "saved" or rather a nightmare for me back then.

Anyways, I woke up to find myself chained to a bed in the middle of the night. I yelled all night till someone from the nurses came and untied me. The first couple weeks I spent them in my bed not eating or taking my meds, so the nurses forced me to do so. After a while I got used to the routine; waking up at 9 am for breakfast, the lunch at 2 pm and the dinner at 8 pm and between those hours there was nothing to do but watching tv.

When it came to treatment plan. We took our meds, talked in group therapy, and was seen by my therapist twice a week. After one month I was allowed to have a pen and paper cuz I wanted to write a novel. And thats what Ive been doing since. I finished the draft for one story and started writing another. Writing and reading really helped pass the time and distract me. The third month, there was nothing new. Same boring routine. I learned from my doctor that im going to leave next friday and im really excited to live my life again.

As for the suicidal thoughts, there arent any anymore. Overall it was an okay experience but I hope that I dont experience it again lol

Glad to hear that you are feeling well now, wish you all the success in writing - you can publish your work online and see how do people react to it, they might give you some criticism, but don't feel discouraged - mistakes are only the steps to learning how to do better. Also say thank you to the friend, they saved you that night, such people are really important in our lives, don't lose them :)

 

[Somethingswrong]

I've been there, I wasn't aware of the time bc I got a bit high before my ctb attempt and my BF at the time woke up to that note and called the cops. I woke up in a medical hospital, tho not tied down. I couldn't hold my bladder (which was extremely embarrassing)! And I wouldn't walk or even stand up, I've always had hallucinations so they didn't panic me except one bc it was a massive bug. I wasn't happy to be alive either but now I am, I didn't stick to the meds so I slowly got better but I'm glad you did and that those thought are gone. I hope you a life full of happiness and love. Also did you feel different after you woke up? We're your nerves shot after?

 

[Anhaedra]

Did you feel that your core personality changed or more or less the same human but in a better spot?

Interesting quandary.

No, my personality didnt change at all, but I gained a lot of self confidence from the group therapy.

Welcome back! I'm glad you don't have suicidal thoughts anymore!

Thank you! I hope the best for you too.

I've been there, I wasn't aware of the time bc I got a bit high before my ctb attempt and my BF at the time woke up to that note and called the cops. I woke up in a medical hospital, tho not tied down. I couldn't hold my bladder (which was extremely embarrassing)! And I wouldn't walk or even stand up, I've always had hallucinations so they didn't panic me except one bc it was a massive bug. I wasn't happy to be alive either but now I am, I didn't stick to the meds so I slowly got better but I'm glad you did and that those thought are gone. I hope you a life full of happiness and love. Also did you feel different after you woke up? We're your nerves shot after?

I felt a lot of anger that my attempt didnt work after I woke up in the hospital.
P.S : I also couldnt hold my bladder lol.

Damn . They just disappeared? ( the Sthoughts?) what meds did u take?

It didnt just disappear one day, they kept fading day after day thanks to the treatment program my doctor made for me (psychotherapy + meds + group therapy). As for the meds, they changed every couple weeks or something, so I cant tell you exactly what Ive been taking.