Spending the last time making good memories with loved ones

[Kennish]

So I'm thinking about alot lately to try to make decent memories with loved ones before I leave this place. There is gonna be some time before I get my N and leave this place.

Could it make it easier for the ones who love me, that they have spend time with me the last time before I leave?

I'm thinking maybe then they won't blame me as much. Even though I would like to not be blamed, because life here is hell for me, and I think I have made that clear for them.

What are your thoughts about this? Before you CTB, are you thinking about spending time and making decent memories with your loved ones?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure it would make it easier for them, I don't think anything would. Maybe a note might give them some closure, at least that is what I plan to do. I will say things like 'there is nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace'.
Before I ctb, I will distance myself from others as much as possible. It is tiring being around family members anyway, all they do is complain and talk non stop about boring things.

 

[Kennish]

I'm not sure it would make it easier for them, I don't think anything would. Maybe a note might give them some closure, at least that is what I plan to do. I will say things like 'there is nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace'.
Before I ctb, I will distance myself from others as much as possible. It is tiring being around family members anyway, all they do is complain and talk non stop about boring things.

Have you expressed your wish to not be here anymore? I have, and it seems like some people just act as they don't hear it.

How are you planning to CTB?
I don't know if I'm gonna be writing a note, because I think that would make it harder for me to CTB

 

[Risperdead]

for me as a targeted individual with no social contact to anyone and every aspect of life destroyed this question is not present. normally i would say having some last quality time with your loved once is decent. Kennish thanks for this thread and the food for thought which reminds me how much i want to die and leave this place for good.

 

[FuneralCry]

Have you expressed your wish to not be here anymore? I have, and it seems like some people just act as they don't hear it.

How are you planning to CTB?
I don't know if I'm gonna be writing a note, because I think that would make it harder for me to CTB

No, I keep everything to myself. There is no point in telling anybody else. They would try to stop me from doing it. They would not accept it.
I haven't fully decided on the method but it is likely to be hanging. It will probably be in years time though. It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier I would already be gone.

 

[Kennish]

for me as a targeted individual with no social contact to anyone and every aspect of life destroyed this question is not present. normally i would say having some last quality time with your loved once is decent. Kennish thanks for this thread and the food for thought which reminds me how much i want to die and leave this place for good.View attachment 75377

You're welcome, I guess?

for me as a targeted individual with no social contact to anyone and every aspect of life destroyed this question is not present. normally i would say having some last quality time with your loved once is decent. Kennish thanks for this thread and the food for thought which reminds me how much i want to die and leave this place for good.View attachment 75377

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I hope you find peace whatever you do

No, I keep everything to myself. There is no point in telling anybody else. They would try to stop me from doing it. They would not accept it.
I haven't fully decided on the method but it is likely to be hanging. It will probably be in years time though. It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier I would already be gone.

I just told a friend I'm thinking about it. He said he would not judge me, but would prefer that I didn't do it. Even if he did want to stop me it would be difficult, since he's about 6000 km away

You're welcome, I guess?

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I hope you find peace whatever you do

I just told a friend I'm thinking about it. He said he would not judge me, but would prefer that I didn't do it. Even if he did want to stop me it would be difficult, since he's about 6000 km away

I've actually expressed my feelings about it to several people. I don't know why. Maybe because I need to vent it. But I haven't been forced to a mental hospital or something like that by any of them

No, I keep everything to myself. There is no point in telling anybody else. They would try to stop me from doing it. They would not accept it.
I haven't fully decided on the method but it is likely to be hanging. It will probably be in years time though. It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier I would already be gone.

Its so annoying we are programmed to surviving.

 

[Beau]

I don't know if I'm gonna be writing a note, because I think that would make it harder for me to CTB

Writing a note for me is very important. I keep constantly revising it, and I think that process has helped clarify my own thoughts about it. I also wrote down "my story" (this is mentioned in the book "Five Last Acts" in the wiki) and that has helped bring some peace too, as a more permament record of my memories with family and friends.

 

[Kennish]

Writing a note for me is very important. I keep constantly revising it, and I think that process has helped clarify my own thoughts about it. I also wrote down "my story" (this is mentioned in the book "Five Last Acts" in the wiki) and that has helped bring some peace too, as a more permament record of my memories with family and friends.

I wouldn't know where to start and where to end with a note

 

[ItsTimeToExit]

Could it make it easier for the ones who love me, that they have spend time with me the last time before I leave?

It could if your note references it well.

Something like, "You may not feel it now but in the future you can look back on the time we spent together as a happy memory."

Or perhaps it won't work. People are weird in death I think.

I wouldn't know where to start and where to end with a note

First you need to answer a simple question.

Are you looking to provide closure or lay on the guilt and blame?

 

[Kennish]

First you need to answer a simple question.

Are you looking to provide closure or lay on the guilt and blame?

Good question. To some degree I blame my parents. But I wouldn't know where to start and end and all in the middle. I think my mind would want me to include all the people I know. And it's kinds weird to be blaming some people and for the rest of the note, talking about love and good memories together.

Maybe it's best there's no note. At least right now I don't know what to include in that note.