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noname223

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I am in constant fear that it might be obvious I worked for my college paper with AI. Soon I meet my lecturer and in my head He is ripping me a new asshole and humiliates me in front of All my peers. I am so fucking scared.
 
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noname223

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I am 3 weeks into college again and so much worse mentally. I start to believe again that my suicide would be based facing all these problems. I worry so much, so much anxiety, such strong pathology. I think many of them are irrational but they decrease my life quality so much. I am so tired of it. I think I will quit after this semester again.
 
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noname223

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Woke up at 3 a.m. could not sleep anymore. I think the new seminar paper is too stressfull. I feel like I might collapse. I am really scared the sleep deprivation will cause paranoia. If I become really paranoid I gonna quit college I think. Tonight I will take an addictive sleep medication the only thing that works.

In my seminar for tomorrow I am the GOAT politically. I think I impressed my lecturer. But it is insane which torment is going on inside of me. It is insane fear. I am scared as fuck to participate. At the same time I am scared as fuck when I am not participating. The pathologies are so strong. Literally a game I cannot win.

My das tries to "help me" by whining how horrible it is that I cannot get my degree. I think it is cognitive dissonance because He agitates against unemployed people.

I might go to my self-help group tomorrow. There is a new woman that seems to be interesting. But with my paranoia holy shit this gonna make feel really bad.

I hope so much that I manage to get more sleep. In prior semesters I woke up at 3 a.m. regularly. This caused strong paranoia and made my life a living hell.
 
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L9my

L9my

only the living grieve
Nov 22, 2024
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I am the alpha and the omega,
I am the way, the truth and the light
 
L9 CHOCOIRL

L9 CHOCOIRL

L9L9L9L9
Nov 3, 2023
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Bosses I think I need to eat some food
I cant lie right my stomach is GROWLIN boss
 
L9my

L9my

only the living grieve
Nov 22, 2024
750
In the history of philosophical lucubration, arguments for determinism are traditionally the most argued against.
 
whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

*bleat*
Aug 5, 2024
293
I'm so hungry. I could eat a deer!
i'm so hungry i coudl uhhh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ugh how starveful ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh UHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i could . i coudl eat a Hecarim... that furnace chest...sticking my marshmallwos into it toasting them. heh... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.so cookful
 
L9 CHOCOIRL

L9 CHOCOIRL

L9L9L9L9
Nov 3, 2023
253
i'm so hungry i coudl uhhh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ugh how starveful ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh UHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i could . i coudl eat a top eu challenger who plays a lot of Hecarim... that furnace chest...sticking my marshmallwos into it toasting them. heh... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.so cookful
Im scared
Heacrim would beat up pharma hmph
 

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