Sourcing the oxy to heroin to od pipeline

[CesiumBullet]

Recently I can't stop thinking about just throwing it all away. I'm feeling so impulsive, and I can't get SN easily enough. If I'm going to die, why not go out with a bang?

I feel like an opioid OD would be the best way to go out. When you narcan a fenthead they're not scared or appreciative, they're pissed off that you ruined their high. That's how good it feels, you might not even know you're dying. My day-to-day life is filled with fake smiles and complete exhaustion. Why not take a chance to feel real euphoria for the first time? I've never done any hard drugs before, but you have to start somewhere.

I'm just not sure where to source opioids. I'm aware you can DNM them, but it feels too risky to be illegally mail-ordering controlled substances when I live with my family. The last thing I want is to get a visit from LE. So where do I look? I'm a university student, but only for a couple more months. After that I'll be fully entrenched in a shitty pink-collar job. Where do people find their dealers?

 

[nyotei_]

heavily considering this method as well. the first time I took oxy, I knew I would never forget the feeling. the only time in my life I have ever actually relaxed my shoulders and simply enjoyed existing. my body would literally shiver while laying in bed just from how fucking comfortable I was. I knew I had it in me to just chase that feeling forever, not giving a shit if it meant death. I wouldn't mind letting this friend gently cradle me to peace.

as for DNMing, assuming you're not stupid, there is no real risk except for the fact you live with family. I would do a bit of research on privacy and safety habits first.