jenny6391bubbles
a hikikomori waiting to catch the bus
- Mar 1, 2021
- 103
I always find it so frustrating when well-intentioned friends tell me to not do things for people I've had a crush on and that I should do things for myself. I already do things for myself -- therapy, dance classes, journaling, art, music (occasionally), going to concerts. The small occasion I do something for someone that I like, people see me as mentally unwell. I am not exactly expecting my feelings to be reciprocated but I just want to show my appreciation for them (without necessarily confessing to them).
An ex-friend thought I was insane for not having a period longer than a month where I had no crush. And I thought I was insane for several months, until my mother told me she was like that at my age. I kind of feel like a lot of my friends do not understand the pain I go through fully (it doesn't help a lot of them are on the acearo spectrum). Luckily, there's at least ONE friend that empathizes with me and goes through the same things as I. It feels so fucking isolating and I hate it! I can only hope therapy makes me really better after 5-10 years.
An ex-friend thought I was insane for not having a period longer than a month where I had no crush. And I thought I was insane for several months, until my mother told me she was like that at my age. I kind of feel like a lot of my friends do not understand the pain I go through fully (it doesn't help a lot of them are on the acearo spectrum). Luckily, there's at least ONE friend that empathizes with me and goes through the same things as I. It feels so fucking isolating and I hate it! I can only hope therapy makes me really better after 5-10 years.
