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girlboything

girlboything

drugged up doll
Jun 1, 2023
56
this is different but one time after not self harming for a pretty long time (for me) i got home from work and just sat on the floor and listened to dirty night clowns by chris garneau on repeat for like idk two hours and just burned the absolute shit out of my arm with scissors and a lighter. i don't know why. i don't remember anything happening that day.

but last time i tried to ctb i was listening to la dispute. i think the song edward benz 27 times. they have this really long song called king park that i listen to for this like twenty second part at the end that goes
"Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?
Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?
Can I ever be forgiven 'cause I killed that kid?
It was an accident, I swear it wasn't meant for him
And if I turn it on me, if I even it out
Can I still get in or will they send me to hell?
Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?"

not that i've ever killed anyone. or believe in heaven. i just like it.
 
_Alfarooq_

_Alfarooq_

Useless bastard almost making the decision to CTB.
Jul 24, 2023
291
I would CTB to this part of this song:

"Life's a piece of shit, when you look at it, life's a laugh and death's a joke it's true."

Life REALLY IS a piece of shit, and is a joke, he's really right lol. It's really nice when you find a song lyric that exactly describes what your going through.

Here is the song: (go to 1:45)

at 1:45
 
venua

venua

ven *
Jul 1, 2023
60
this is different but one time after not self harming for a pretty long time (for me) i got home from work and just sat on the floor and listened to dirty night clowns by chris garneau on repeat for like idk two hours and just burned the absolute shit out of my arm with scissors and a lighter. i don't know why. i don't remember anything happening that day.

but last time i tried to ctb i was listening to la dispute. i think the song edward benz 27 times. they have this really long song called king park that i listen to for this like twenty second part at the end that goes
"Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?
Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?
Can I ever be forgiven 'cause I killed that kid?
It was an accident, I swear it wasn't meant for him
And if I turn it on me, if I even it out
Can I still get in or will they send me to hell?
Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?"

not that i've ever killed anyone. or believe in heaven. i just like it.
i love La la dispute <3
 
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