Sometimes thinking of suicide makes me SO hysterically happy.

[Doll Steak]

Does anyone feel something like this? Like I'm talking about laughing and crying uncontrollably, getting a giant rush of happiness and energy, feeling invincible and angry. its so weird but enjoyable, just fucking crazy. This is completely sober too.

 

[peanutsandjelly]

I think this is quite common, though it seems like the quality is just a tad bit different for everyone. So yeah, I feel something like it as well. It's not happiness, invincibility, or anger; it's more excitement, and a finale to look forward to, completely sober ofc. It's definitely enjoyable, almost intoxicating, lol.

Then it always leads me to start thinking about what comes afterwards: non-existence. What does that even feels like to not feel at all. It must be completely different from sleeping but even sleeping can feel already so... non-existent? I mean, it must feel exactly like how we felt before we were born, but what does that even feel like to begin with. It's creepy but interesting at the same time.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

The prospect of a happy end makes me euphoric too, but unfortunately this feeling was never strong and sustainable enaugh to supress my survival instinct.