Venting somehow still here…

[roseleaf]

hey guys ️ come here once in a blue moon nowadays. try something. doesn't work. try to get better. and i come back.

so here i am again.

does anyone else think long hours about elaborate ways to die? that's been on my mind recently.

i got tired again. talk to me, anyone…

 

[La_jefa]

Yes I'm stuck in this

 

[Kurai]

Yes i think about it all the time

 

[La_jefa]

I have fear of crossing over to the other side .

 

[CantDoIt]

I think about it a lot but get guilty and afraid of it. My methods aren't too elaborate though, pretty standard because I'm boring.

 

[La_jefa]

Same i agree with can't do it

 

[Duality]

I'm still here too. It's always been a rollercoaster for me.

I've come here less and less recently, but I hope that you find comfort knowing that this forum is here for you no matter what.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

i do. once you start thinking about it it kind of takes over your mind.

 

[Bleh61]

hey guys ️ come here once in a blue moon nowadays. try something. doesn't work. try to get better. and i come back.

so here i am again.

does anyone else think long hours about elaborate ways to die? that's been on my mind recently.

i got tired again. talk to me, anyone…

I think about it all the time. I have the means. I have a seizure disorder and could OD on my phenobarbital. For 8 months in 2019, I felt like I had finally vanquished the deamons. I was about to terminate my therapy because I couldn't think of anything to say to my therapist. Then Covid came along, and my job enviroment became so toxic I was forced to leave. Got another SW job working with homeless MICA clients. Long story short, I'm at the worst point in my life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, personally I just wish for a death as painless as possible, that's what I'm always thinking about and hoping for. But anyway I wish you the best.