I have and I haven't been trying really hard to get my life together. I was doing my best at my job but I never really reached out when it got tough. I did the therapy but I wasn't honest when I didn't think it was working. It's funny when you people please because it's just a different type of lying. I'm in so much pain right now but then it feels like a lie when I'm not. There are so many patterns of behaviour that I engage in that actively make my life worse. Even worse I can't even afford the support I need to get better so what's the point in trying. I'm on a 7 month waitlist for treatment and then an indefinite time for help for being neurodiverse. It's cringe. How can someone have so many things wrong with them? Pathetic. I've always been a coward but I hope I can do one right thing.
