Venting social ladder games

[Brainless]

I hate to be a piece for people around me to get closet to each other instead making any positive connection to me, I hate being that person who who someone dislikes for no reason and someone who likes them notices just to be an ass to me so the other person who dislikes me can be delighted and manipulated by this dummy to be liked by their interest. These kinds of people can't just tell they don't like me.

I actually want to hide from everyone because everyone has gone insane. Almost everyone I've met is too insecure to make meaningful connections, too busy to play social ladder games or have a constant pointless race to make things as unfun they can be. Online activities are way more emotion driven, but lack depth to be meaningful despite being very emotional, English language has been "memed to death" and I can't think of sentences without thinking of some reference. Online users try to get these filmesque scenarios with each other and drama that leads to negative emotions for everyone in the end and rush relationships with no solid plan.

They waste my resources, my time and I don't even care if they don't have anything else to offer than company. I feel like people are too fucked.

 

[Brainless]

i mean it feels like my voice itself is mere entertainment and speech has lost is feeling, nothing is worth anything except for money, at least my voice will be gone after my death i so done with with everything

 

[goodlifesurfaceskim]

Yeah once you start to analyze why things are, the "infinite possibilities" and hope that once was turns to realizing that it's all so stupid. If it's not stupid here, it's stupid there. ect. Life wants our brains in pieces. Fuck that, this is one of the main reasons why I'm on this site..

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Everyone thinks they are the one moving the chess pieces when in reality everyone is a pawn with a hat that makes them look like a king. You can take the monkey out of the jungle but you can not take the jungle out of the monkey. Humans simply overestimate themselves and can never see that MAYBE sometimes MAYBE they are as animalistic as those "filthy animals" they so happily belittle on every single occasion.

And of course I bet you were openly very kind to people, maybe overly kind, overly empathetic and those "people" used the opportunities you have given them to hurt you and take from you, what take from you? what they could at the time probably, your time, knowledge, catch phrases, money, personal belongings, it doesn't matter because in the end they never saw you as a person, as you said, you were only another obstacle for them to climb the social ladder.

And this sucks, plain and simple, I know and not because I was there too but because we are not the ONLY ones who are there, right now, there are people like US in the making, people that have no idea SaSu exists or that suicide is even on the SCOPE of a possibility but without fail 70-80% OF THEM TOO MANY will end up dead because of it, because they actually CARED about the people and didn't have an agenda or a "game plan". Big fuck yourself to humanity from me, pieces of shit is what they are.