• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):

Do you suffer from social anxiety? If so, is it the main reason why you’re choosing to CTB?


  • Total voters
    136
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I'd say it definitely plays a part for me. It has in many ways tainted how my life has turned out. There are jobs I would have gone for and jobs I would have been better at if I wasn't so socially anxious. That said- I don't have the desire to be around people. I don't actually feel lonely that much. If I could get by continuing to work and live at home on my own, that would go a fair way to stop me wanting to CTB. Part of the motivation to CTB is being forced back into the world to do another job that I'll likely hate.
Same, I don't have the desire to be around people either. I don't feel lonely either. In fact, I prefer being alone. Tbh I don't understand why people want to be around people…I hate the fact that we're forced into the world and into society, and that we're forced to be around people and talk to and interact with them. I hate that it's necessary for survival and to exist in this world. I hate the fact that we have to work to live. Having to eventually participate in society is a main factor in me wanting to ctb
I'm shy but most people don't notice that or simply misunderstand me. I have a hard time maintaining my gaze into people's eyes I'm talking to. It probably looks like I'm shady when actually it's shyness.

I am not socially anxious at all in spite of shyness. I've been successful in groups and done public speaking and had a lot of acceptance and I also have a don't care attitude towards the opinions of others. People don't believe me when I say I'm shy, aside from a few very aware individuals. I told my shrink I am shy and he was amazed.
I feel you, eye contact is so intimidating. I hate looking at people's eyes or making eye contact with people, and I hate that we're expected to. I also don't know how to maintain my gaze and what's the "appropriate" gaze. I think this is cuz of my Asperger's…Usually I wear sunglasses whenever I can to avoid eye contact and having to look people in the eye
 
Last edited:
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: 4am and Forever Sleep