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ScorchedLifePolicy

ScorchedLifePolicy

Member
Nov 21, 2020
18
I guess I'm just seeing if things will get better but it seems things are getting worse. I have no Idea how long I'll last but I've bought my way out already.... Just a matter of when will I realize that it's over and bite the dust.
 
these_days9

these_days9

Specialist
Dec 25, 2019
327
Just personal circumstances. My date hasn't arrived yet, waiting on certain things before I go for it. So I guess while I have my method pretty set, this site gives me some camaraderie and comfort in the interim. And I can monitor the latest updates on my method and others.
 
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Lostandlooking

In limbo
Jul 23, 2020
422
What made me stay on ss? I can relate to some of the things I've read here. Reading about people experiencing somewhat similar things feels comforting and validating. What made me stay alive? Guess I'm just not ready to die yet. Also my cat.
 
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Wraith

Wraith

Lost in The Void
Nov 4, 2020
181
I'm gathering everything I need to CTB. Once I do, I might stick around a bit longer to see if things improve. This is also the only place where I can unironically say I want to drink bleach without getting shamed, which I'm grateful for.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,024
I came here to research. I made an account to say thank you for the knowledge I gained, and to express how kind the community was. I stayed because having a place to talk to people that understood how I felt where I could he open without fear was therapeutic. Talking to the group helped with impulsive ctb urges. My situation won't really get better, but I have to keep going for the kids.
 
elfgyoza

elfgyoza

Cursed
Aug 5, 2019
326
It's quite rare for me to act on impulse as I don't often experience those super intense periods of emotions. I've failed a few times since I joined SS, mostly due to backing out though.
Most of my time has been spent just kinda going with the flow, winging it, but my time will come when I feel ready to face it.

Being here has given me some sense of belonging, which is not something I've ever really found in my life. I'm probably more at peace with everything now than I would've been if I never found this place
 
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EmptyManForever

My wings were cut and now I can fly no more!
Oct 3, 2020
141
Survival instinct is what made me stay for the most part , also I'm numb and empty headed ,so I feel like I have no thoughts left , so it's almost impossible to ctb without any thoughts
 
Mer

Mer

Insert Witty Comment Here
Dec 2, 2020
66
Genuinely interested? For those who have chosen to stick around whether for a set period of time or indefinitely what changed? What made you stay?

Here as in life or here as in the forum?

If you mean life; I wanna watch a few more movies and shows, before the end of the year before CTB.

If you mean the forum; it's the only one I've found like SS. And for the most part the community seems kind and isn't screeching "you coward!!" for even having suicidal ideation. So thanks for that!
 
NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
989
False hope & failed attempts. That's what life had to offer to me.

SS gave me the opportunity to speak openly, I never feel like I can be myself with people. I feel that if they get too close they'll notice that I'm a shell of a human being. It hurts trying to keep this in without talking about it, but the consequences are too steep in the real world.

Good question.
 
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SorrySandy

SorrySandy

Æmber
Nov 15, 2020
45
I came here to research. I made an account to say thank you for the knowledge I gained, and to express how kind the community was. I stayed because having a place to talk to people that understood how I felt where I could he open without fear was therapeutic. Talking to the group helped with impulsive ctb urges. My situation won't really get better, but I have to keep going for the kids.
Exactly the same, couldn't put it better than that. My kids are adults now but they're the last reason I have not to ctb. Literally hanging on for them but not sure for how much longer. Agree with everything you said, virtual hug to you.
 
SweetTangerine

SweetTangerine

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Nov 9, 2020
41
i came here during a depressed fit and stayed because of the concept. i feel as if i can truly relate to everyone here and i've never thought i could fit in anywhere at all, so it was a good feeling.
 
SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
Kept on failing and survival instinct.
But also, I'm selling my flat and I don't want my husband (seperated) to get the money from the flat sale.
I have made a will that says my Mum and Sister gets it shared between them.
If I die before my flat gets sold, he will have to go through getting the flat sold and paying the mortgage and the rest of the bills, but he will also get the money.
 
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