kaywontbehere
angel
- Jan 13, 2024
- 4
there is nothing i like, people always get mad at me when i say this saying there must be something which brings me joy yet there isn't. i've never experienced pure happiness like others has and it pains me to see people so happy.
i hate everything, people included. of course there's my friends and certain people i can tolerate yet i can't even love them, one of them died recently and i couldn't even find it in me to feel sad. more so an inconvenience.
i don't know what's wrong with me, and i hate myself especially. my family know somethings wrong with me; although i doubt they care enough to actually do anything. the only thing im being checked on is making sure i eat enough due to the fact im soon to be underweight if i keep not eating. i cant even find the strength in me to do that anymore, eating makes me feel sick and just staring at food is repulsive.
i had an interview recently where i was asked the question where do i see myself in 5 years time and god i struggled so hard to answer. that question alone i failed so hard i don't even think they're going to accept me because of it.
i don't feel real, can no longer sleep either, i only get around 4 hours maximum. is anyone else feeling like this?
im stuck between wanting to CTB but also not even having the motivation to do it, it seems so exhausting more than anything.
maybe im just going through an episode however, my environments been loud recently and my mother wants to take away some of my disability aids. no one believes me when i tell them my symptoms so im kind of just struggling alone. it'd be really nice to know if there's anyone who can relate, even just a little bit.
i hate everything, people included. of course there's my friends and certain people i can tolerate yet i can't even love them, one of them died recently and i couldn't even find it in me to feel sad. more so an inconvenience.
i don't know what's wrong with me, and i hate myself especially. my family know somethings wrong with me; although i doubt they care enough to actually do anything. the only thing im being checked on is making sure i eat enough due to the fact im soon to be underweight if i keep not eating. i cant even find the strength in me to do that anymore, eating makes me feel sick and just staring at food is repulsive.
i had an interview recently where i was asked the question where do i see myself in 5 years time and god i struggled so hard to answer. that question alone i failed so hard i don't even think they're going to accept me because of it.
i don't feel real, can no longer sleep either, i only get around 4 hours maximum. is anyone else feeling like this?
im stuck between wanting to CTB but also not even having the motivation to do it, it seems so exhausting more than anything.
maybe im just going through an episode however, my environments been loud recently and my mother wants to take away some of my disability aids. no one believes me when i tell them my symptoms so im kind of just struggling alone. it'd be really nice to know if there's anyone who can relate, even just a little bit.
