Venting So my past is still a problem

[soulessbunny]

So apparently my past is still a prob for my so, they mentioned dark thoughts all time, I do one stupid thing cos I was in a bad place and they were okay with it, helped me thru it and then bam suddenly it's now affecting them(let's not get into the fact they put the idea in my head in first place). So here I am feeling like I should just give up now, I mean or I could fake it and pretend everything's okay until it's not. I had a 3 point plan always as a backup, but I'd put it aside cos of them and now I just think I shud just go back to it. I mean I say I'm ok and they still freak?yet they act the same way..I just don't understand.(my 3 point plan finishes with sleep as no matter what Id rather go peacefully) sorry just need to get that out