Discussion So many young people

[Apricity]

Is it just me, or does it seem like a disproportionate amount of the people CTB lately are fairly young? I mean mid-twenties and under.

It saddens me that so many have so much negative shit going on that they end their lives before being able to really experience things.

This world sucks now.

 

[deflationary]

This world sucks now

It has always sucked, and will always suck. There's no age limit to recognizing that. It's sad when people kill themselves, but mainly because of the lives they led up to that point, not because non-existence is bad for anyone.

 

[Amumu]

You mix lack of social contact due to screens / social networks / pornography with poverty and loss of religion / spirituality, you get the perfect recipe for catastrophic mental health issues.

 

[Apricity]

You mix lack of social contact due to screens / social networks / pornography with poverty and loss of religion / spirituality, you get the perfect recipe for catastrophic mental health issues.

I feel religion has done more harm than good.

 

[Amumu]

I feel religion has done more harm than good.

Then only consider the word "spirituality" in my sentence. Spirituality encompasses religion.

The latin roots of the latter literally mean "the link", in other words social contacts.

I get the impression most atheists - myself included - have difficulties analysing religion objectively.

 

[motel rooms]

This world sucks now.

You know what makes me furious? That something as beautiful as sucking is associated with bad things

 

[demuic]

The future is very bleak. I think that whatever they could have experienced in the future they have no desire or ability to see out. That's how I feel.

 

[ihatemyselfsomuch]

I'm 18 and when I tell people that on here and other forums they always say shit like: "you're so young, things will change", "I was the same when I was your age", "go out and enjoy yourself", "you don't even have any real problems yet", "life is only just starting".

And to be fair, they're mostly correct. Logically speaking, it's idiotic of me to kill myself now. But I just have no hope left, and don't want to live a life of pain suffering like I've seen so many others do. I'm sure some of you can understand that. A relatively painless death by SN is a much better alternative to living a shit life that I will never get much enjoyment out of. I know this probably sounds dumb, but it's just what my brain is telling me to do. I just want it all to be over.

 

[Peaceisnear]

EI'm 18 and when I tell people that on here and other forums they always say shit like: "you're so young, things will change", "I was the same when I was your age", "go out and enjoy yourself", "you don't even have any real problems yet", "life is only just starting".

And to be fair, they're mostly correct. Logically speaking, it's idiotic of me to kill myself now. But I just have no hope left, and don't want to live a life of pain suffering like I've seen so many others do. I'm sure some of you can understand that. A relatively painless death by SN is a much better alternative to living a shit life that I will never get much enjoyment out of. I know this probably sounds dumb, but it's just what my brain is telling me to do. I just want it all to be over.

+1 The way I've come to understand it, it feels like a toxic love-hate relationship with life, well I had many of those should know the feeling well enough by now. Nothing will ever change you just learn to hold back better

 

[WatermelonMel]

Life is an endless cycle of suffering, that's all there is to experience.

 

[8evergo]

what is going on in the world at the moment there will be even more people who will celebrate CTB as many bad times as never before what is going on in the world will soon also take the bus

 

[Bedrock48]

A large part of my issues are caused by trauma and negative childhood experiences. However more and more things have shifted, I had hopes and dreams. Now my dreams are frequented of what I'm gonna do once climate change hits us full force. How I'm gonna manage when sea levels rise and my home city is underwater.

While I can put some of that energy into climate change activism in hopes to avoid complete disaster, there's always too much of it. The future is so uncertain and bleak right now, unless you are in complete disconnect from the world its gonna take a toll on even the healthiest person.

Its sad, devastating even. If my future was more certain maybe recovering wouldn't seem so pointless.

 

[8evergo]

Die eigen Probleme werden mit den Pandemie noch versteckt .

 

[Hurt]

In my case there's nothing left to experience. People tell me I have so much to live for. But I dont want. Keep on living equals keep on suffering for me. Everytime I try to get better something bad happens. Its like life is telling me this world is not for me anymore. It sucks. It really sucks.

 

[8evergo]

In meinem Fall gibt es nichts mehr zu erleben. Die Leute sagen mir, dass ich so viel zu leben habe. Aber ich will nicht. Lebe weiter gleich, leide weiter für mich. Jedes Mal, wenn ich versuche, besser zu werden, passiert etwas Schlimmes. Es ist, als würde mir das Leben sagen, dass diese Welt nicht mehr für mich ist. Es nervt. Es ist wirklich scheiße.

So geht mir auch

 

[fox_wannabe]

It saddens me that so many have so much negative shit going on that they end their lives before being able to really experience things.

I am afraid I have experienced enough, I'm good.

Besides for most of us or at least for me:
You know you won't experience anything you have been waiting for, when you are in early twenties. You probably even knew this beforehand, that life is a train you have been pushed off long time ago, and now you cannot catch up, or possibly even you were never invited on that train.

You just know your past experiences, and see where others are at. And you see them having it all while you have to work hard and struggle with mental illness.

Besides life is bullshit anyways, and suicide always comes too late. The damage has already been done.

 

[existtosuffer]

There was still enough to distract myself in my late teens, but it still didn't stop the feelings of lonely emptiness.

I've learnt that depression has no limits and can effect anyone. It doesn't care about your age, wealth, gender etc.


It's not that this stuff didn't exist in the past before technology. It's more that it was kept quiet in fear of being stigmatised.

I don't think there will ever be a cure for many mental illnesses until we change the way we work & modify this outdated system.

 

[deathgripsme]

i'm 21 and planning to leave in 2 months, I can't bare to grow older in this world it's sick and twisted and a dystopia for young people.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I tried a lot of stuff out (working, studying, having friends, gaming, reading, music, lifting, cooming, cooking, MMA, living on my own, etc, etc), found nothing that was right for me. A few things that I would still like to try out (gf, big money) I have no access to, and that's fine. If I've tried most things out in life and didn't like them, I don't see how my age is relevant.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I wanted to die at 18. By a stroke of luck, totally unexpected and out of context, I got married at 23. The gods of fortune smiled upon me for a brief moment and I was glad I didn't give up. Fast forward 12 years, I want to die again and I'm back where I started. The only difference is, now I know there's nothing more I could try out to make me not want to die. Maturity and experience made me realize that I was right in the first place.
The positive side of me wants to say: if you are young give yourself a chance, young is more adaptable and open to new experiences beacuse it's not yet fully formed and determined.
The negative i.e. mature side of me is a cynical goblin that should have died a long time ago.

 

[Circles]

The future just feels like it's going to be more and more likely dystopian than some utopian future that I grew up wishing for. Technology taking over our lives, loneliness rates increasing, humans destroying the only planet we live on, governments becoming more controlling and totalitarian, the likelihood of poverty for the average person and the price of living getting more expensive, climate change for fuck sakes, so many social issues that seems unfixable or just plainly ignored, and the list goes on and on and on and on. I mean fuck I'm so overwhelmed with what I know I wish I never knew anything now because of how bad everything is. What hope is there living on a dying world? It's like being born in a burning house and being told to live to the fullest.

 

[Brayu]

23 years old... I've seen enough...

 

[sadstargazer231]

Recently, I read that 25% of all people in the 18-26 year old demographic have actively contemplated suicide. That to me, was staggering but not surprising

 

[BridgeJumper]

I'm in mental ward now and just talked about this with a 50 year old lady in my room. She said something along the lines, people were more resilient back then? Personally I just think this dystopian world is getting even worse and driving us to this

 

[deathgripsme]

The future just feels like it's going to be more and more likely dystopian than some utopian future that I grew up wishing for. Technology taking over our lives, loneliness rates increasing, humans destroying the only planet we live on, governments becoming more controlling and totalitarian, the likelihood of poverty for the average person and the price of living getting more expensive, climate change for fuck sakes, so many social issues that seems unfixable or just plainly ignored, and the list goes on and on and on and on. I mean fuck I'm so overwhelmed with what I know I wish I never knew anything now because of how bad everything is. What hope is there living on a dying world? It's like being born in a burning house and being told to live to the fullest.

This is exactly how I feel wow. So well put.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

I dont know. Being 18 and i have seen enough. Looking forward to the day when I finally ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am young. In less than 2 months I will be 21. I never thought I would make it to that age. I am extremely tired of existing. My life has been horrible, I cannot wait to leave it all behind and finally be at peace. I have spent a lot of my life being unwell. I have long depressing days that never end. The memories of the past never leave. I regret not ctb at an earlier age as it would have prevented lots of suffering. If I could talk to my past self from years ago, I would tell her to exit this world then as things can only get worse.
Overall, I wish I was never born. Being alive really is a curse. I see my existence as a mistake. In this life there is no limit as to how bad things can get.

 

[Bot]

i feel that too, it truly sucks and it's horrible

In my case there's nothing left to experience. People tell me I have so much to live for. But I dont want. Keep on living equals keep on suffering for me. Everytime I try to get better something bad happens. Its like life is telling me this world is not for me anymore. It sucks. It really sucks.

 

[fox_wannabe]

In my case there's nothing left to experience. People tell me I have so much to live for. But I dont want. Keep on living equals keep on suffering for me. Everytime I try to get better something bad happens. Its like life is telling me this world is not for me anymore. It sucks. It really sucks.

There is a part of me that wants to take on new hobbies. And other part which reminds my how much suffering will it cost. Not that hobby per say, but living to learn it. I often envy old painters who were doing it their entire lives. If I wanted to be one of them I would have to live another 5 to 10 years, and It reminds me that apart for that 1 or 2 hours of painting per day I would have to spend the remaining 22/23 hours a day working, stressing out, and not having a good time.

I tried a lot of stuff out (working, studying, having friends, gaming, reading, music, lifting, cooming, cooking, MMA, living on my own, etc, etc), found nothing that was right for me.

I tried them too. They all somehow didn't work or failed. I think It was just buying time for me. Even magic mushrooms did not help, people claim they work wonders. hahaha

 

[fox_wannabe]

I guess according to this criterion, I'm considered to be young at 24. Everyone I've talked to has disagreed when I complain about how old I am, but I feel like I've lived through an entire lifetime, and there is nothing for me in the world anymore. After seeing how cruel everyone can be and the curveballs that life can throw at you, how does that not age you beyond your years? How does this not sap all the vitality and vigor that you once had, only to be replaced with frailty and exhaustion?

Nobody is judging anybody's age here I hope. Everybody is right to feel what they feel. <3

I also felt that, like being very old in young man's body. I feel exhausted. Sort of like I felt everything I needed to.