So lost but trying to live if I can’t decide to die

[burninghill]

If my suicidality is going to remain passive, I've decided to commit to just… trying my best to live with it until the time comes where I can't take it anymore, but I genuinely feel so empty and there's nothing I can do about it.

Nothing is fun or makes me happy, I don't feel anything deeply enough for it to matter, it's all fleeting and pointless. I'm trying my best to feel good, going out often and keeping up academically, it just never works. I'm going to fail forever and I will never be satisfied

 

[violetforever]

this is basically how im living until i figure out another ctb method too. i function to merely drift through each day. i really try for more but it brings me nothing. i always end up at the same place in my mind every night when i turn the lights off and get into bed.

 

[themisfit]

Hey dear

It's ok to stay alive. You don't have to CTB right now if you can't, whatever the reason may be

Meanwhile, I'm glad that you are trying to do your best to feel good

Don't put pressure on yourself. It's not your fault that everything is pointless. Don't force yourself into finding a meaning if things are so difficult

Just keep on. Keep on