So jealous of normal people.

[Parnate]

There are few people in my company who have normal functioning brains, work 9 hours a day and still have time to go to gym and maintain a good body, take care of themselves, how they look, groom themselves. Go on regular outings, parties etc.
what did I do to deserve this body, these problems? My body is seriously fucked up, I have chronic constipation ,hyperhidrosis, weight gain and very low energy level. At the end of workday my mind is numb and tired but my fucked up brain doesn't allow me to sleep either. No matter how tired I get I just can't sleep . And well I guess I have just accepted my mental problems as a part of my personality and my life.

 

[metfan647]

Yep, there's a lot of very high-functioning individuals out there.

Notwithstanding my mental health issues, I could have placed myself in that category a couple of years back (at least productivity wise with work, gym, hobbies etc.).

Problems (health and otherwise) have a nasty way of cascading.

I feel somewhat envious of the young when I see them on their way to the gym, clearly having just finished a taxing day's work.

 

[thelostautistic]

I feel the same way. I wish I could be like everyone else but it's so hard

 

[itsgone2]

What's the point? Why are some bodies so different than others? Why are some so lucky? Idk if evolution used to filter out the unlucky? I'm not as bad off as some but why things that limit us so badly? Why birth defects? It's cruel.

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

The mechanism that governs life is just that: a mechanism. The evolution of the mind throughout generations since the first humans has had side effects. One of them is what we call feelings. We develop them mainly through learning, observation, and imitation, like almost everything we do. Later, we delude ourselves with the individualism forged by our own minds, impenetrable to others. This feeling that we are "special" is merely a reflection of this purely physiological aspect of the mechanism itself. I'll try to summarize: we are a fraud. The people you call normal are also a "fraud" (a result of these variables), just more adapted. We are a product of side effects, environment, learning through imitation, and then we create a personality simply because the creations of our minds are inaccessible to others. You will never get answers to some questions simply because the mechanism is indifferent to it. It doesn't punish; it happens. If you want, you can simplify it as bad luck or good luck. There are no answers because our minds create questions without considering that we are just one of many species, with the difference that we have gone through an evolutionary process of the mind. This evolution only gave us the capacity to be aware of ourselves, nothing more. We know what we are, we know our destiny (death), and we know that we can create anything in our minds. This capacity is responsible for a large part of our discomfort. When we have a dream or nightmare, the brain is functioning without any control, and often the results are indicators of this fraud I mentioned. When we are awake, the fraud kicks in, and that's why we feel what we feel, think what we think, etc. Anyway, this has already gotten too long. Sorry.

 

[lpdsvm]

I tried to be normal and spent time and resources on it to become a bit more normal - but I can't fit in. It is not enough. I would need years and years and now it is getting only worse for me to catch up.

 

[Deer_Dairy]

There are few people in my company who have normal functioning brains, work 9 hours a day and still have time to go to gym and maintain a good body, take care of themselves, how they look, groom themselves. Go on regular outings, parties etc.
what did I do to deserve this body, these problems? My body is seriously fucked up, I have chronic constipation ,hyperhidrosis, weight gain and very low energy level. At the end of workday my mind is numb and tired but my fucked up brain doesn't allow me to sleep either. No matter how tired I get I just can't sleep . And well I guess I have just accepted my mental problems as a part of my personality and my life.

Feel the same way. I have chronical nurological illness for most of my life and took me quite long to be so so ok with it. Then the mentall problems came in full strenght, it ruined my life completely and I had to start over again. And when it seemed better, it returned.
Why is this happening? Did I do something to someone or what? Due to the illnes I have constant problems with overweight and due to mentall condition I can't work properly and am exhauseted after few hours of doing something.
Feel with You...

 

[moonshard]

I have ADHD and apparently it's pretty bad lol. I have a bunch of shit going on actually. I also want to be normal, I know people who can function normally, and I just really really want to be like them. I hate being me, I know on the grand scheme of things I'm not too "disabled" but I just wish I could be one of those people who enjoy taking selfies or getting a treat at a cafe, the ones who have fun watching sport or love island. Everyone preaches about being your authentic self, but I am just built so incorrectly I can't. Everyone preaches about being your authentic self but my authentic self is so much pain and suffering.