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IwanttodieASAP

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Nov 5, 2022
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I wanted ao badly to be in peace by now but here we are hours away from the new year and I still exist. About to start my first year without her and I hate it. I hate this life and world so much.

I stockpiled beer (which is hard for me in my situation), and I'm going to drink like a sailor tonight. Hopefully I get so drunk I jump off my roof or something. Not even kidding. I hope I make a mistake that ends my life. But let's be honest, I'll just make mistakes that make my stay here even worse....


I hate life. I hate myself
 
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Oct 26, 2019
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I am so sorry she's gone.

I was invited to a house party but I think I feel too out of sorts to go.

Cigarettes will kill me and real weed makes me feel kinda awful but I'm thinking about getting some of that cbd flower just for idk the act/ritual of smoking something.

Your rage makes sense and I hear you.
 
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IwanttodieASAP

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Nov 5, 2022
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I am so sorry she's gone.

I was invited to a house party but I think I feel too out of sorts to go.

Cigarettes will kill me and real weed makes me feel kinda awful but I'm thinking about getting some of that cbd flower just for idk the act/ritual of smoking something.

Your rage makes sense and I hear you.
Thank you.
 
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tilly17

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Dec 23, 2022
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I wanted ao badly to be in peace by now but here we are hours away from the new year and I still exist. About to start my first year without her and I hate it. I hate this life and world so much.

I stockpiled beer (which is hard for me in my situation), and I'm going to drink like a sailor tonight. Hopefully I get so drunk I jump off my roof or something. Not even kidding. I hope I make a mistake that ends my life. But let's be honest, I'll just make mistakes that make my stay here even worse....


I hate life. I hate myself
Sorry you're in so much pain and agony. Best wishes
Please don't let us still be here in 2923! 2023 is bad enough ! Just throwing out some humor as I've made many mistypes myself, but this one made me think of those who've lived to almost 100 years old. Cannot even imagine! Of course most of them had better health and didn't face the hardships we do today. Although hearing of my great grandma having electric shock therapy her depression was so bad, makes me Feel like mine will surely never get better as hers didn't.
Sorry your hurting so much. Hoping this year will get easier for you somehow. Happy new years for what it's worth! You're not alone!
 
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Sep 20, 2022
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Well that
Sorry you're in so much pain and agony. Best wishes
Please don't let us still be here in 2923! 2023 is bad enough ! Just throwing out some humor as I've made many mistypes myself, but this one made me think of those who've lived to almost 100 years old. Cannot even imagine! Of course most of them had better health and didn't face the hardships we do today. Although hearing of my great grandma having electric shock therapy her depression was so bad, makes me Feel like mine will surely never get better as hers didn't.
Sorry your hurting so much. Hoping this year will get easier for you somehow. Happy new years for what it's worth! You're not alone!
Well that would be roughly 900 years old. I imagine it would feel pretty dark cold and empty.
 
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Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
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2923: maybe i should try my SN from 2022
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,299
I really do understand that it's so awful still being here trapped in the same existence when all that you wish for is to leave. Of course I also despise existing and I really do hate the fact that I've managed to exist for yet another year which makes me envy those who ctb so much. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.
 
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