Venting So....happiness makes you sad apparently

[cookiencream]

I just watched the chainsaw movie with friends. It was so fun, we had the theater for ourselves because we went to an early showing so we got to be as loud as we wanted. One of my friends and I kept pointing out the symbolism and being literature nerds. It was really fun, but when I got home....I felt so empty and depressed and I started crying really really hard. Then I found out that apparently when your brain comes off the "high" of being happy you crash and become sadder. And damn, that fact does not want to make me live any longer....I hate how the thing keeping me going is the fact the more days I live through the less days of life I have left overall...

 

[dreamgarden]

this is how i feel when i finish a book or show i really love haha, that emptiness is probably one of the worst things a person could ever experience

how was the movie by the way?

 

[cookiencream]

this is how i feel when i finish a book or show i really love haha, that emptiness is probably one of the worst things a person could ever experience

how was the movie by the way?

It was amazing honestly

 

[girl from mars]

wow, you just perfectly described how I was feeling. the only exception is that I feel this way for relationships/positive interactions with people

 

[NutOrat]

They always say that if a piece of art hurts you, then it's indicative of its quality. That it's worthwhile. We love glorifying pain, don't we? Everything must hurt for it to be meaningful. I don't like that. And I do still feel that, like all of my favorite stories are ones that left me feeling hurt, sad, distraught, I'm contributing to that. I think it's inevitable. But I don't want to hurt anymore, I'm fucking tired. I'd rather not exist and not have to go through that again and again.

I also went to Chainsaw Man with friends and siblings on Friday. Maybe it was my mental state at the time, but I don't think I liked it. I enjoyed parts of it, but by the end I kind of just wanted not to think or contemplate, I wanted to go home and lock myself in my room. Instead, I spent 4+ hours with others, and my mental state was getting worse and worse. So again, probably not a fair judgement of the movie. I can't enjoy most media anymore because of what I wrote earlier. I can, but I don't want to.

 

[burdentoeveryone]

aw i'm so sorry you feel this way:( life really is painful and unfair. you're not alone in this. i relate completely. i feel depressed and suicidal all the time when i'm alone and hanging out with my friends is basically the only time i feel truly happy (or maybe euphoric would be a better word) but when i get back home i feel even worse than i was before, i feel lonely and so painfully empty. i hate my own company.

 

[liquid jen]

EVERY single time I have fun out somewhere with friends or family.
You're not alone in this at all, it's a very common feeling.

 

[BeyondSurvival]

Lucky for me, I haven't been happy enough for years to feel that sudden drop, honestly.