so close I can feel it (sorta)

[glowing.purple.aura]

It's not a question of "will I?" anymore—and honestly—I don't think it has been for years. It's now just a question of when. I just wish it didn't require so much effort. Just living miserably and doing nothing but rotting in my room and wasting away my life is turning out to be a lot easier than having to plan anything out. At the same time it's getting harder and harder to stop myself from screaming because of all the mental pain.

 

[bleedxi]

i am so sure my death will be a suicide. i've already accepted it. like you said, it's just about when. i've always thought i'd just ctb when i finish my degree. at this point, i don't to live beyond 25 (currently 23).