Venting So alone. Hard to cope.

[citrusrope]

I'm so utterly alone that it hurts. I don't have a single person I can turn to or talk to IRL at all and I seriously don't know how much longer I can be like this, all isolated. Keeping all of these words that I just want to desperately say to someone on the inside is making me feel so frustrated and sick and I dread waking up. I think my mental health is starting to affect my physical well-being now because I physically start feeling ill with all this shit on the inside of me never being able to find a way out.

I want to blurt out everything I'm thinking to someone and I want someone who will actually listen and empathize, but that's just a pipe dream.

In a way though, it's probably my fault for not having anyone too. My agoraphobia and anxiety and depression got really badly that I ended up not being able to keep friends. I still feel resentful though, because it's not like I wanted to be this way. It;'s just hard to get out of that shithole pit of mental health issues when I don't have a good support system. Fuck or maybe they could have asked if I was okay... But maybe they did and I forgot; Sometimes I feel like I'm victimizing myself so I start feeling guilty. I don't know. I'm just struggling.

 

[CatLvr]

I'm so sorry you are feeling bad. Don't be too hard on yourself. Have you talked to your doctor?? There are medications that can help. I am not a big fan of therapy, but I know others it has helped tremendously so ... I tend to be a bit of a loner so while I can't really identify with wanting human contact, I can EMPATHIZE with the fact you are clearly hurting. Be gentle with yourself. I hope you can find some peace within yourself.

 

[whywere]

This is one of the best aspects of SaSu, is that we are ALL family here, as far as listening, helping and making folks feel wanted and heard.

I have no family nor friends and this site is so darn welcoming, and we are all in this TOGETHER.

Lots of hugs, love and the knowledge that you are never ever alone on here, NEVER.

Walter

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry you feel so alone. Hey, I'm sending you lots of virtual hugs and kisses You don't ever have to feel alone here, we are always here to catch your tears and listen.

I don't have family and barely any friends so I understand and definitely empathize with your feelings of loneliness. It's a hard truth we have to accept everyday we wake up. I always say God puts people in our lives that can help us along on this journey. I'm not sure if you're a spiritual person and if not I apologize.

 

[littleearthquakes]

I'm so utterly alone that it hurts. I don't have a single person I can turn to or talk to IRL at all and I seriously don't know how much longer I can be like this, all isolated. Keeping all of these words that I just want to desperately say to someone on the inside is making me feel so frustrated and sick and I dread waking up. I think my mental health is starting to affect my physical well-being now because I physically start feeling ill with all this shit on the inside of me never being able to find a way out.

I want to blurt out everything I'm thinking to someone and I want someone who will actually listen and empathize, but that's just a pipe dream.

In a way though, it's probably my fault for not having anyone too. My agoraphobia and anxiety and depression got really badly that I ended up not being able to keep friends. I still feel resentful though, because it's not like I wanted to be this way. It;'s just hard to get out of that shithole pit of mental health issues when I don't have a good support system. Fuck or maybe they could have asked if I was okay... But maybe they did and I forgot; Sometimes I feel like I'm victimizing myself so I start feeling guilty. I don't know. I'm just struggling.

I relate to this so much. My chronic illnesses and mental health issues and agoraphobia plus physical limitations all add up to having very few connections, mostly online and precarious. It's hard to find people who understand or can hold space for what I'm going through. I have so much bottled up and no one wants to hear or can handle it. My DMs are open if you ever want someone to vent to.

 

[citrusrope]

I'm so sorry you are feeling bad. Don't be too hard on yourself. Have you talked to your doctor?? There are medications that can help. I am not a big fan of therapy, but I know others it has helped tremendously so ... I tend to be a bit of a loner so while I can't really identify with wanting human contact, I can EMPATHIZE with the fact you are clearly hurting. Be gentle with yourself. I hope you can find some peace within yourself.

I don't really know what it is about medical settings but I don't think I'm in a place where I'd be able to get myself to go... Maybe one day.

I relate to this so much. My chronic illnesses and mental health issues and agoraphobia plus physical limitations all add up to having very few connections, mostly online and precarious. It's hard to find people who understand or can hold space for what I'm going through. I have so much bottled up and no one wants to hear or can handle it. My DMs are open if you ever want someone to vent to.

I know it sounds a bit weird to say, "Hey I'm so glad someone else is also feeling this way!" because that means they're also suffering the same pain but, it makes me feel a little better to find someone who can relate with me. I also have something similar to chronic illness and of course my mental health issues so yeah, I feel that. Thanks for taking the time to reply