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ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
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Hey Guest,
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That's the worst worst thing, isn't it? When you have family but you feel that you are so alone you may as well be living on the moon by yourself in the dark x
There's a song I heard once, can't remember it now, but it had a line about being all alone in a crowd and it's so true. You can be feel totally alone mentally even in a room full of people
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:) It is time. I dont know how to live anymore. I am having some wine right now in a very quiet house.I hope so much you can find peace - or a way forward if you don't feel it's quite the time. We are all here for youXx
color_me_gone
Sun is rising
- Dec 27, 2018
- 970
We are here with you honey.
@Northerngirl1965 We are here for you so you don't have to be alone.
Can you post how you feel after taking the sn?
Sanguinius
Chicken of ss
- Aug 9, 2018
- 291
Good luck, may uou find peace....
Yes because I have forgotten how to live so why be here. mY family just wants me here but I am miserable.
It must be horrible being so torn between them wanting you and you being so unhappy and having had enough x
Can you see any way of being happy again?
Anyone here spiritual but not religious??
It is. They will be devestated and my girls are 22 & 23
And unfortunately no
Awww that must feel like a huge burden - as if half of you wants to go but you don't want to hurt your girls for the world. Are they married?
No, one is living here with her bf and avoids me pretty much cuz she knows how I've been and the other is a physical chemistry doctoral major.
@color_me_gone you are a wise soul what are your thoughts
Hey, that's ok honey, wish I could give you a real hug xx
color_me_gone
Sun is rising
- Dec 27, 2018
- 970
It sounds like you have a hell of a lot to deal with; coping with your own medical plus depression illnesses and worries about your daughter avoiding you. X
You must be very proud of your other daughter to have achieved so well academically, well done to you - she wouldn't be doing that without your encouragement
Lara Francis
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,627
color_me_gone
Sun is rising
- Dec 27, 2018
- 970
If it were me, (AND IT IS NOT ME) I really would hang in there for my kids, watch my oldest get her diploma.
But the pain she is suffering is obviously great.
So as we are pro-choice, we support her decision.
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I would like nothing more than to be here to watch her get her diploma but I cant even leave the house, I cant focus and I have forgottten how to live. I have a Masters in Psych but what good does it do me in my state. I dread the next day because I cant function. so....very sad.
That is awful :-( I'm so so sorry. It's not living, just existing. Have you had any help from your doctor? (Other than drugs)
color_me_gone
Sun is rising
- Dec 27, 2018
- 970
I really was not insinuating you didn't.
I totally understand how it is so hard to even get out of bed.
Like JustAboutDone said, I wish I could be there to give you a hug as well.
sorry for your pain, @Northerngirl1965. You seem like a soft soul. I wish your pain would go away.
Her living room will get jolly crowded if we're all there! :-)
Yes and a husband who loves me unconditionally :(
