notrealmatthew
The kindest are the most suffering
- Aug 27, 2023
- 56
Hey, everybody!
I am planning a CTB, most likely using SN. Need your advice.
My most successful CTB attempt so far was about two years ago. I was awake for about 25 hours, then in the morning I drank about 50 pills in one go: quetiapine (neuroleptic), a little carbamazepine (a little) and a little bit of some antidepressant.
I ended up lying on the bed and passed out instantly. I woke up after a three-day coma in the intensive care unit. The doctors said that if I had taken 5-7 more Quetiapine tablets, I would not have survived.
I like this attempt the best because of the fact that I instantly fell asleep and didn't catch all the pain that I know for sure I had (I woke up in the ambulance and screamed, but wasn't conscious).
Right now I'm thinking about drinking SN. What I need your advice on:
- I will be drinking in an apartment where there are other people. I don't have any other option. After I drink SN - what are the chances that I will be loud and wake everyone up? What if I cough a lot or scream? How does it happen?
- How fast does a person pass out after drinking SN? What are the chances of catching all the pain that this method causes? And what are the chances of passing out immediately if I also stay awake for more than a day? Like that attempt two years ago.
- How much time must pass before I can no longer be saved?
Please don't tell me that you shouldn't do it in an apartment where there's someone else - if you're talking about morality. I know you can't do that. But I'm way past morals, and I'm running out of options.
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I am planning a CTB, most likely using SN. Need your advice.
My most successful CTB attempt so far was about two years ago. I was awake for about 25 hours, then in the morning I drank about 50 pills in one go: quetiapine (neuroleptic), a little carbamazepine (a little) and a little bit of some antidepressant.
I ended up lying on the bed and passed out instantly. I woke up after a three-day coma in the intensive care unit. The doctors said that if I had taken 5-7 more Quetiapine tablets, I would not have survived.
I like this attempt the best because of the fact that I instantly fell asleep and didn't catch all the pain that I know for sure I had (I woke up in the ambulance and screamed, but wasn't conscious).
Right now I'm thinking about drinking SN. What I need your advice on:
- I will be drinking in an apartment where there are other people. I don't have any other option. After I drink SN - what are the chances that I will be loud and wake everyone up? What if I cough a lot or scream? How does it happen?
- How fast does a person pass out after drinking SN? What are the chances of catching all the pain that this method causes? And what are the chances of passing out immediately if I also stay awake for more than a day? Like that attempt two years ago.
- How much time must pass before I can no longer be saved?
Please don't tell me that you shouldn't do it in an apartment where there's someone else - if you're talking about morality. I know you can't do that. But I'm way past morals, and I'm running out of options.
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